A Gideon's Army Prayer Letter around satanic ritual abuse
The purpose of this prayer letter is to initiate a prayer movement in the Netherlands and abroad to free victims from the shackles of satanic ritual abuse.
In addition, to make people aware of the existence of satanic networks under the surface of our Western society. So that a network of passionate people gradually emerges to offer spiritual and practical support to victims (and perpetrators) who choose freedom.
In this prayer letter, Esther talks about how difficult this time of year is for survivors. Next is a story from a survivor about St Nicholas and a drawing about being chained up. Next appears a poem by a survivor, followed by the thanks and prayer points, and finally the prayer calendar.
Presenting the financial statements (by Esther)
It is the end of November. The leaves are falling from the trees and the cold is increasingly being felt as we go out in the morning and get ready for bed in the evening. The last month of the year is upon us. For many people, these weeks are weeks of days off, going through holidays together, perhaps decorating the Christmas tree and setting good intentions for the new year. The gourmet set should not be forgotten either.
When I think of these weeks as a survivor, a crampy feeling creeps up my stomach and I feel sadness rising. A flood of memories of deep, deep loneliness and much pain, but above all extreme fear of the year's reckoning come over me. As a renegade, as the cult now sees me for no longer being obedient to them, I am supposed to burn in the fire or be smashed to pieces by the 'family' that has always taken such good care of me. At least that is their thinking.
I can be above it now. The only one who will and can truly judge me is my only Saviour and Ruler Yeshua, but for many survivors who are still getting out or are still facing that, it is different. For them, the extreme struggle begins now. And when your (new) friends during these days are busy with their families, 'partying' and eating good food, and you as a survivor are fighting the horrible memories and the thoughts of having to face punishment when you have been bad in the eyes of the cult, you feel intensely lonely and abandoned. How hard it is then to keep stepping out and choosing the way of Yeshua!
A survivor can only do that with loving people around them, who are just there for them! Just being there for a survivor, sometimes even without words is very important in this process!
From a survivor about Saint Nicholas
St Nicholas, the man with the big penis, the man with punishment, he sees all our faults and writes them in a book. He doesn't give presents. He punishes with his penis and his puppets are also allowed in for a while. As a little girl, I wanted to be good, but I really wasn't always, I made many mistakes. I was a child of the devil, that's what grandma called me. I was not a child, but a slave to sex. The punishments I deserved were in St Nicholas' book every year. It was supposed to be a celebration and it seemed so, in the great hall we gathered, the common room of our community. Heavy red curtains to the floor, a big chair with an altar for offering behind it. Playing with each other and with the gifts lying there was allowed. Listening to our mothers and fathers, we took our seats for St Nicholas. We sang songs: 'Holy, holy, holy are you our Saint, good to us, you know us, you give us.' One by one we were allowed to sit on his lap, his big dress went up, we had to lick his big penis, until he said stop and then he spoke to us.
First all the punishments, mistakes, sins and misdeeds were named, then our attributes, then came the assignments we had to do that following year. Then the Saint said, now you may go to the first little room to contemplate who you are and who we want you to be. That little room was cosy, but very cold, when the next child came, you had to go to the next room, where you had to lie down on a table, sit on a chair, or be tied up. Then all the puppets came by to rape you completely to pieces. They enjoyed our nakedness, preparing the way of sex slave, you had to obey. In the last room, you were made beautiful, washed and neatly dressed again.
St Nicholas is not a celebration but a punishment, a penance! They make you so cut up, you become a slave.
Drawing made by a survivor (2024) 'chained!?'
No words (by NOA)
No words
there are no words
I will try
make I get stuck every time
I start with fresh courage
a blank sheet and a pen
a blank computer screen
courage gives way to frustration
the sheet remains blank
the screen remains completely blank
the problem is not inspiration
images and thoughts abound
they fall over each other as they try to find a way out
letters try to form words
words try to make sentences
sentences try to be a story
but it doesn't work
it looks like the letters are too scared to form a word
the words too queasy to make a sentence
And the sentences find it too implausible to be the story
so everything gets stuck in the body
like a big knit of letters
letters that have not yet become words
words that cannot yet be a story
I wish the letters dared to come out
that the words realise they are allowed to be there
and that the story is proud of how they have come so far despite everything.
Thanksgiving
Farmstead 'the Inner Garden
We are thankful with our new location Hoeve 'the Inner Garden'. At the time of publishing this prayer letter, most of the renovations in the living area have been completed, a kitchen has been added and a new roof has been put on a house, and we can look forward to furnishing and renovating the outbuildings and client areas. Grateful for this opportunity and that God has continually provided what was needed.
Handlers
We are incredibly grateful that some treatments are running, that there are teachable people involved and we are on the road together.
Network friends
We are grateful to have network friends and their loyalty.
Donations
We are grateful to have donations coming in every month to do our work.
Prayer groups
We are very grateful to know that more and more people and groups are praying for srm survivors.
Information evenings
We are grateful that every information evening is well attended and that our work, but especially this injustice, is becoming better known in the Netherlands.
Foundation and ANBI
Grateful we are for the ANBI status that our, newly established foundation, has received without opposition.
PRAY FOR ...
And all that ye shall ask faithfully in prayer ye shall receive (Matthew 21:22).
Handlers
Pray that for the work of practitioners, donations will continue to come in to fund it and that practitioners will receive wisdom and strength for their work. We still need more practitioners.
Network friends
Pray that the people who are now network friends will endure to be able to be friends, while the person seeking help shows more and more of themselves. Pray for more network friends throughout the country, there is a really big shortage of these and sometimes literally gets in the way of getting out of the cult. Specifically, we are looking for networkers in the broad surroundings of Amsterdam, Zwolle, Gorinchem and Utrecht.
Work by Friends of Esthers
Pray for all the developments within Friends of Esthers. We work hard to improve diagnostics for CDIS (complex DIS) in ongoing abuse, and we work in multiple areas to spread our knowledge. These include frequent meetings for networkers, bidders and so on where we do knowledge transfer and where we meet. There is a lot of time and energy in this work and each step requires a lot of wisdom. We need Yeshua very much in this, if He does not build the house, in vain toil the builders (Psalm 127:1). We are very much aware of this. Pray for His guidance with every step we take in every area of our work and with every person we deal with.
Finance for the Inner Garden
We have definitely started the Hoeve. A place where survivors can safely work on their traumas, so they can and dare get out. Our project still needs money to rebuild the large barn. Please pray for finances, builders and building materials for this so we can convert it into an office and training/meeting space to see clients, train practitioners and networkers and meet together in a safe place.
Prayer groups
Pray for more people to stand up against injustice and fight along in the spiritual world. Find people and start praying together. Ask others to join. Start ... Yeshua will bless it!
Perpetrators
Continue to pray for offenders to encounter Yeshua and see what He is doing in the lives of survivors. Pray for courage and outstretched arms in their lives where they feel the safety and freedom to repent and start their lives anew.
People
Anjer
Carnation is a brave practitioner who has worked with survivors for some time. Her job really matters and for help and advice she is always sympathetic. She does have poor health, though. Pray that she will keep the strength and courage to keep doing this work and feel her limits in this. Pray also for wisdom during the treatments.
Martin
Martin is a help-seeker at Friends of Esthers. His process is intense and has a lot of impact on himself and those around him. Pray that person parts learn to stay safe and that more and more parts choose the way of Yeshua. We are grateful for breakthroughs in his treatment and pray for a larger network around this family.
Adam
Adam is a son of a survivor. Eager prayer that Yeshua puts the right people around him and around his family so that he dares to step out of this darkness. Much wisdom is needed and Yeshua will have to be the one to open the right doors and make his heart willing.
Ismael
Ismael is a grandchild of a survivor and experiences abuse in his early years. Unfortunately, there is no access to him yet to help him be and stay safe until now. Pray for open doors and for parents to address opportunities for exit!
Myrthe
Myrthe would like prayer for expansion of her network, in addition it is important to pray for her safety and for the safety of her family.
Ladybird
It is an intense period for her with a lot happening. She struggles a lot with the issue of truth/lie. We are working on expanding network. Pray for Yeshua's guidance and His nearness in this whole process and for a good work-life balance.
Ferdi
Has already had a long road where he has faced a lot of opposition. Pray for open doors and Yeshua's guidance to bring the right people into his path so that the path to lasting freedom can be set.
Ingrid
Ingrid is a brave relief worker who does not give up. Her suffering is great, but her will to recover and be able to help others is greater. There have been great breakthroughs in her process, pray that the breakthroughs will keep coming and her suffering will be reduced. Pray also for safety where she lives.
Laura
Please prayer for Laura that she will gain new life courage, for peace in her mind and that more inner parts will learn to put their trust in the Good Shepherd. Also prayer requested for Laura's partner, that he too will gain the strength to endure. In addition, prayer for Laura's safety remains very important.
Esther
Over the past few months, I have continued to use my knowledge and experience for help seekers and for knowledge transfer moments. Confronting survivors of which I have been a perpetrator myself and vice versa is a complicated, but at the same time restorative one. Again and again I experience Yeshua's guidance and presence. For this I am intensely grateful! Pray for wisdom and strength to continue to cope with this process and to be there in love and with an eye on the other. Not my will, but His will. Song for this period.
Aline
Since a few months, my husband and I, along with two other families, have moved to De Hoeve. This is a big change, also because our two youngest children moved into rooms at the same time. Pray for strong family relationships in new circumstances. I would also like to grow in wisdom to assist the survivors God has entrusted to us and to know what is and is not my task in this.
Humbly
Humbly is a brave woman who has been helping a survivor for decades. All these years, she and many others have tried many ways to help this person, but experience many of these attempts as failures. Since starting at Friends of Esthers, Humbly is less alone and feels supported, but it is still a tough road to see the suffering of a survivor up close. Pray that she will gain and keep wisdom, courage and strength to continue this tough process. Let us all spiritually stand around people like Humbly.
Desiree
Is a courageous woman who knows several survivors, cares for them and wants to be like a friend. She often faces spiritual struggles through this work. From Friends of Esthers, more and more tasks come her way, requiring courage and the guidance of Yeshua. Pray for protection and wisdom in the steps she takes, so that more and more survivors can be helped.
Jan
Jan is an older toddler who shows core characteristics of severe abuse in his play behaviour and in other ways. A lot has been going on around Jan for a long time. Pray for contacts between caregivers, for protection when it comes to parental authority and that he has a safe place to grow up with appropriate treatment
Els
Els is a brave practitioner who has been working for survivors of ritual abuse for years. Pray for strength and courage to continue and for support around her. Pray for good cooperation between parties she deals with and for wisdom and insight during treatments.
Geertje
Geertje's trial is ongoing. Her mother has had a tough stretch. Eager prayer that this trajectory will increase her security and that the tug-of-war for parental rights will come to an end.
Sarina
Sarina is a medical aid worker who helps us with our work. After cancer treatment, she is recovering but still has little energy, partly because her health was poor before this. She is unable to work; it affects her life a lot. Pray that her condition and her whole body will recover so that she can continue to serve helpers.
Survivors
Pray for survivors who cannot be named for various reasons. Pray that they may know that they are valuable to Yeshua, pray that they will learn that there are people who can be trusted and above all that Yeshua is safe and is always with them. Pray that Yeshua will put safe people around them so that there will be opportunities for them to recover from what has been done to them.
Other survivors and helpers still waiting
We are in contact with several help seekers and because of the application freeze, we cannot help everyone right now. Pray for wisdom for us for the applications that are already ongoing. For proper diagnostics and for the right doors for the right help. Churches that dare to open their doors to this group. Pray that those who have to wait for help will find courage and strength to persevere and not give up or will find another place where they can be helped. That the great arms of Yeshua will carry them too.
Prayer calendar
Cult dates with times of rituals and additional information and prayer points
It is very intensive for survivors to surface specific information about each cult night, because each cult meeting is associated with many horrible memories, which then come to the surface. It has therefore not been possible to get sufficient clarity on the specific times of all days. The times of 1.00 - 3.00 are not always fully covering: the cult often goes on longer and sometimes starts earlier. For days where no time is given, keep 1.00-3.00 as a guideline. For certain cult groups, Friday night is fixed cult night. Friday is therefore a day that is extra tough for many survivors.
Days like new moon and full moon are days when the cult comes together extra and the intensity is heavier. Pray that these nights will be disrupted and the spiritual power they experience will be powerless.
(Note: if it says 3 December, it refers to the night of 2 to 3 December).
15 November full moon 01.00 - 03.00
1 December new moon 1am-3pm
3 December 1am-4pm
4 December 1am-4pm
5 December 1am-4pm
15 December full moon 1.00-3.00 pm
16 to 23 December this is Christmas preparation week. Children will be kidnapped and trafficked children and adults will be taken to places to prepare them for the Christmas cult days. Pregnant women, who have been made pregnant with the aim of giving birth to a baby during Christmas, will also be prepared with stimulants and examinations. There are daily meetings, with the weekly meeting being mandatory and the evening of 23 December also.
From the evening of 23 December 10pm, the cult activities will continue non-stop until the morning of 25 December 5am from 23 to 25 December are the preparations for the big climax. Because it is many hours in a row, this is very tough and exhausting for children/survivors. Those who stop going to the cult get exhausted with all the chances of still being caught and those who do go have to fight to their death sometimes to keep it up. Pray for strength, courage and faith that a new day will come when everything will be better.
Night of 23 to 24 December until Christmas Eve 11:59pm the eve of Christmas is immediately the toughest night of this period. Prior to this day (often on the night of 31 October to 1 November), a chosen one has already been chosen for the holy sacrifice. A sacrifice in which someone is considered a kind of virgin and serves the whole 'family' by giving her life for the higher purpose and that is to satisfy Satan and his servants. The demonic activity during this night is immense and for many victims the nastiest aspect of the evening. Being raped by demons is truly horrifying. Pray for the victims. Pray that they will be protected from the demonic activity. That no demons will remain in them and that they will feel that a stronger power, the power of Yeshua rules and will prevail. Pray for blinding of the perpetrators and that there will be some kind of dome over the ceremony so that the demons cannot even get to it.
24 December on 25 December Christmas Day new life has begun. On this day, it is 'celebrated' that Satan wants all power over life and death. Cult members will confess this and ratify it with a sacrifice of a firstborn. After this, the newborns, which are young virgins under the age of 12, will be raped on an upside-down cross to increase the sacrilege of Yeshua. Pray for the mother who gives birth to her first child and loses it immediately. Pray for a deep trust that the baby will be safe with Yeshua. Pray also for the children who are raped on the cross as well as during the orgy afterwards.
For the night of 25 to 26 December, it concerns the period between 0.00 - 5.00 a.m. (most intense between 2.00-3.00 am). Cleansing after new life. After new life, all evil will have to be destroyed in order to live a holy life. Such is the cult's theory. The group will unanimously punish apostates by hanging and beating them to death. Each attendee will have to beat the one who is hanged to the point of bleeding so that this person eventually succumbs to his wounds. Tying someone up in the middle of a fire pit and lighting it also ratifies the sentence. This happens to less 'important' apostates in the group. Pray for a group revolt within the group. That they will start realising with each other, that what they are doing is bad and they will come to dislike this. That they will revolt against these rituals and that in this, group pressure will cooperate positively for the preservation of the victims who are seen as inferior and bad. Yeshua can do this!
31 December 1.00-4.00 new year's preparation
31 December-1 January 22:00-10:00 climax between 1.30am and 2.30am. Then a count takes place whether you are present or not, important moment. Especially festive affair between important cult members. The regional groups are not always active during this night, however, the national groups are. Pray that these people will be seen and their deeds exhibited! If you help a survivor in any way, don't go to bed at 1 am, but stay awake with him or her until 3 am. A small effort, but incredibly important!
6 January 1.00-3.00
7 January 1.00-3.00
12-13 January 11.59-5.00pm New Year celebration (extra heavy because of full moon)
20-27 January 1.00-3.00 party week meetings every night from 1am-3am. During this week, it is mainly about sex with children, including babies and the sacrifice of adult women.
29 January 1.00-3.00 (extra heavy due to new moon), 30 January 1.00-3.00, 31 January 0.00-5.00 these days mark a new season. New goals and new appointments and new tasks and positions. Some join a new higher grade/position. Others have to step down and take up 'lower' duties. Joining and stepping down grads in the cult. This is an important period for victims, because when their 'leader' steps down - that means being demoted - they also have a tougher time. Pray that this will be a turning point for many, giving them courage to step out!
2 February 1am-4pm
February 12 full moon 1.00-3.00 pm
14 February 1am-4pm
25 February 1am-4pm
28 February 1am-5pm the toughest night of February with the most spiritual struggles. There are demonic activities with libations for Halloween. It is also a new moon this night, which will make this night even heavier.
Will you continue to pray with us?
Esther, Aline and Janita
This prayer letter may be distributed widely, especially in churches. 'My people perish for lack of knowledge',
says the Bible (Hosea 4:6). Let us then look away no more. Let us fix our eyes on Yeshua and injustice, and let us embrace those caught in it and take them before the throne of God!
For more information on satanic ritual abuse, see e.g.
https://www.vpro.nl/argos/media/afleveringen/2020/uitzending-27-juni-ritueel-misbruik.html
https://www.vpro.nl/argos/media/afleveringen/2018/Het-verhaal-van-Lisa.html
NB: the above highly informative documentaries have unfortunately been taken offline by Argos, but can still be found elsewhere on the internet for those who do a quick search.
For whom and by whom?
This prayer letter is for any Christian who wants to join in prayer based on good information. It is an initiative of Esther, Aline and Janita. Esther was born into a church family that worshipped Satan and has struggled to break free from the grip of this cult. Aline is professionally helping survivors of satanic ritual abuse to step out of this cult and come to recovery physically, emotionally and spiritually. Janita is active in prayer work around srm and is a survivor practitioner.
If you know people who might be interested in joining us in prayer, please feel free to forward this letter and the prayer points. If you no longer wish to receive this prayer letter and the prayer points, an email back will suffice.
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