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Prayer letter spring 2025
A Gideon's Army; prayer letter around satanic ritual abuse The purpose of this prayer letter is to initiate a prayer movement in the Netherlands and abroad to
Presentation of book - I am Who? - to members of parliament
Today, Tuesday 4 February 2025, a delegation from Friends of Esthers presented the booklet "I Am Who?" to a number of MPs in The Hague.
The cult with its tentacles
I never realised how deep the cult's opposition goes until this moment. We have now experienced it in buying
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Ritual Abuse
The cult with its tentacles
I never realised how deep the cult's opposition goes until this moment. We have now experienced it in buying
Dormant fear?
As a child, I often saw people looking up. Their eyebrows would raise, they would look back at the person they were in the car with, for example, and they would disappear from sight. They could see that I was in the back of the car with a naked upper body in the middle of winter with a man at the wheel who couldn't possibly be my father in terms of age. It was seen, it was found odd and there stopped a remarkable thought in someone's head.... or not?
A tale of hope
As a child, I was always on my guard. I trusted no one and danger could come from any corner. At home it was unsafe. Men regularly came to rape me in my small bedroom, but above all, my grandfather or uncle often came to pick me up to take me to cult meetings and sex parties.
I learned to sacrifice animals and people, I learned to worship Satan and I learned to survive in almost every aspect of my life. I split and gained dozens of personality parts. Parts that were deeply hidden inside and held memories and parts that learned to bear daily life no matter what.
In the Netherlands and elsewhere
Does (satanic) ritual abuse really exist? An important question. Here are some sources of information about the Netherlands and elsewhere. Also on lichtsopsrm.com, ...., there is a lot of information on this subject.
Cult Days
Helping survivors during cult nights
Over the past year, we have been digitally available to survivors during some cult nights. During these nights, they can email us, we send encouragement and can
Getting out of the cult
Exit process during cult days
Before I went to therapy, I just went to cult meetings. I led a double life, being a hardworking woman by day who just went to work, raised children, cleaned the house, had friendships and also attended Bible studies and went to church.
Auxiliaries
Esther I don't want!
At the invitation of friends, my wife and I went along to an introductory evening around what is neatly named Sadistic Organised Abuse* in the House of Representatives.
Colliding worlds - survivor and networker
I have now spent years walking intensively with survivors of srm and it is harrowing to realise more and more what an incredibly complex world
Blog by Myrjam
For several months now, I have been involved in Friends of Esthers. In this, I have direct and indirect contact with survivors of satanic ritual abuse.
Story of a practitioner
Walking in the park, I responded to a question I was asked, "Are you willing to help someone, who is stuck in a network of mistreatment and abuse". I realised that it will cost me something, but if I don't do it...who will. I said yes. This is how I came into contact with people trapped. Tortured, taken, exploited and discarded. Left alone with nightmares, intense re-experiences and enormous guilt
Disarming
It is written of Jesus (Col. 2:15) that He disarmed and openly displayed the governments and powers and triumphed over them.
This is about the spiritual authorities/powers, about the adversary of God, of grace, of good.
Truth in the hidden
Over a year ago now, my husband and I met an old acquaintance by 'chance' and
we got into a conversation about SRM. I already knew of its existence but actually it was something far
away from me because it is not easily talked about.
Background
Atrocities by Hamas...
An apt post on facebook by Last Call Mission: Many people have been stricken by the terrible reports of Hamas' monstrous practices. Babies being
Infiltration at my work
Introduction by Friends of Esthers: The story below is an outline of an event by the daughter of someone who is intensively helping an aid recipient. The daughter
A tale of hope
As a child, I was always on my guard. I trusted no one and danger could come from any corner. At home it was unsafe. Men regularly came to rape me in my small bedroom, but above all, my grandfather or uncle often came to pick me up to take me to cult meetings and sex parties.
I learned to sacrifice animals and people, I learned to worship Satan and I learned to survive in almost every aspect of my life. I split and gained dozens of personality parts. Parts that were deeply hidden inside and held memories and parts that learned to bear daily life no matter what.
The Prince of Peace and his opponent
If anyone knows anything about Satan and his kingdom, it is Jesus Christ. He had to deal with him in the period when He was
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