Prayer letter spring 2026
The purpose of this prayer letter from Friends of Esthers is to initiate a prayer movement to support victims of satanic ritual abuse to become free from severe abuse and associated trauma.
Another reason for this prayer letter is to raise awareness of the existence of satanic networks under the surface of our Western society. We hope that a network of passionate people will gradually emerge to offer spiritual and practical support to victims (and perpetrators) who choose freedom.
Are you praying with us?
This prayer letter may be distributed widely, especially in churches. ‘My people perish for lack of knowledge,’ says the Bible (Hosea 4:6). So let us not look away anymore. Let us fix our eyes on Yeshua and injustice, and let us embrace those caught in it and take them before the throne of God!
For whom and by whom?
This prayer letter is for any Christian who wants to join in prayer based on good information. It is an initiative of Esther, Aline and Janita. Esther was taken to the cult from an early age (an organised offender network that holds ritual meetings to worship Satan, among other things) and broke free from it after a struggle of many years. Aline professionally helps survivors of satanic ritual abuse to get out of this cult and come to recovery physically, emotionally and spiritually. Janita is active in prayer work around srm and is a practitioner.
If you know people who might be interested in joining us in prayer, please feel free to forward this letter and the prayer points. If you no longer wish to receive this prayer letter and the prayer points, an email back will suffice.
The next prayer letter will come out at the end of May 2026!
On behalf of team Friends of Esthers,
Aline, Esther and Janita
FOREWORD
This prayer letter covers the period of: Good Friday, Easter, Walpurgis, Remembrance of the Dead, Liberation Day, Ascension Day and Pentecost. First included is a contribution by Janita on the Good Shepherd, then Esther shares her memories of hunting parties, followed by a drawing with text by a survivor. This is followed by points of thanksgiving and prayer, and finally, the prayer calendar for the coming period is included. We hope the information in this prayer letter will help you to pray with growing understanding and persistence for all things necessary to stop this hideous evil of srm. So that many lives may be saved and restored to the glory of the only God who is perfect and good.
The Good Shepherd by Janita
King David experienced many misfortunes in his life. And yet in Psalm 23, David says: ‘The LORD is my Shepherd, I lack nothing. David knew that the LORD was his Shepherd. David had been a shepherd himself; he knew what it was to care for sheep. I have recently been reading books about sheep and their shepherd. From this it became clear to me, among other things, that the task a shepherd has is quite comprehensive. Leading a flock of sheep means, among other things, taking care of drinking water and food, of safety. Each sheep has its own character; a good shepherd knows his sheep, is involved with them and loves them.
In Matthew 18:12, Yeshua refers to the image of a shepherd: ‘What do you think: if someone has a hundred sheep, and one of them has gone astray, will he not leave the ninety-nine others and go into the mountains to seek the stray one?’
Yeshua sees here the distress of the one, that one sheep that has gone astray. I am reminded here of survivors, survivors of srm who are in need, that one sheep that sometimes seems so far away. I am reminded of the work we get to do at Friends of Esthers, that one who feels so lonely and wants so badly to be among the other ninety-nine. Our job is to find that one and help it, care for it and bring it back, back to the flock and back to the Good Shepherd.
This we get to do together, we get to be His sheep as well as helpers of the Good Shepherd.
Last year, sheepdog Daisy from a sheep flock in the Veluwe was attacked by a wolf while she was with the flock. Wounded and frightened, she fled from the shepherd. Many people searched the wide area after that, but Daisy was never found. I believe if she had stayed with the shepherd, he would have chased the wolf away and been able to tend to her wounds, so she might have survived. I was reminded of us, we as helpers of the Good Shepherd, know that the wolf (Satan) is targeting us. Let us not fearfully run away, even when we are wounded, but stay close to the Good Shepherd so that we can hear His voice. He can and will tend and mend our wounds so that we can continue the work we are privileged to do for Him. Looking for that one, that sheep(s) that need extra care and love and attention, to bring them back to the flock and to the Good Shepherd.
Without their shepherd, sheep are hopelessly lost; without the Good Shepherd, we are hopelessly lost.
Here a link Of a very beautiful and appropriate song.
OF A SURVIVOR...
My scars tell a story, a memory of times when life wanted to break me, but they failed.
I am a survivor and I am allowed to be there and I am allowed to feel loved. But why, tell me why it is so incredibly hard, my struggle in my life. Sold as a sex slave and to do what was asked of me, be obedient, survive.
But now I may experience that my survival instinct has helped me take steps towards freedom.
Satan had a plan with me to destroy me, to rob me of my future, but the Good Shepherd has a plan with me to actually give me a future and I am balancing between the two and I now get to decide which way to go. A life of freedom, finding a way to talk, cry, paint, draw and express myself in all my pain. Balancing between what I know and what I need to come to know. Which way I choose, the way of the Good Shepherd step by step, with a long road ahead of me....
Drawing made by a survivor (2025)
Hunting parties by Esther
Every year I think back to this. In these months, there are many cult days and each one has its own inconveniences. However, this day is one of the cult days that follows some other cult days. In this, exhaustion is something that is always around the corner and makes the day/night extra tough. When I think back to this day, I think of intense fatigue, very sore, achy, open feet broken by walking in the forest. Intense cold, so bad, you can barely move and that along with a very intense, deep agony. At the same time, I think of my senses on edge, convinced they can handle anything. On this day, I felt like an all-rounder and powerful. I thought I could run faster than the dogs and if I got caught, I had not tried hard enough... Just a day in May....
A day in May
I am walking there in the forest. My senses are on so gigantic. All the sounds, smells and feelings come in as if they are a thousand times louder than normal. My instincts are iron sharp and I can run really fast. I watch my surroundings race past me, that's how fast I am going. The trees become stripes and the grass on the ground becomes blurred, due to the speed of my movement.
It is morning. I have just come from the basement near the forest. We were there with several children and some came in a bit later and disturbed the ‘atmosphere’ because it was so icy cold. Everyone was silent and the men who were acting very businesslike, without emotions, looked at us and talked to each other. One by one, we were taken to a place at the back of the room. There was a big curtain there and you would go behind it and when you came out of there you had something in your arm. They looked relieved when they came out from behind it and that confused me, because then why mysteriously behind the curtain.
When it was my turn, the first time I was there, I think I was only about four or four maybe five years old, then I found it very exciting. The woman who called us grabbed my hand and took me behind the curtain. There was a hospital couch there and some equipment and a desk with stuff. I had to sit on the couch and the man looked at me. In my mouth, in my eyes, feeling my neck and looking in my ears, listening to my lungs and my heart... He measured my blood pressure and I had to stand on the scales and against the measuring rod. He was writing and thinking and then writing something down again. He nodded and while a woman poked an IV into my elbow, he prepared a syringe. I went back to my chair with the drip in my arm and the woman walked with me.
When everyone had been, IV poles came out with a bag attached and it was hooked up to us. When it ran in, the woman and a man emptied a syringe into the bag on everyone and they sat on a chair at a distance. They wrote things down, but I didn't know what.
I felt more and more alert and fine. After these terrible nights, I felt better, they helped me. But everyone stayed in their seats and remained silent. I felt mischief in the air, but couldn't place it. Years later when this happened more often, I was already worrying about what would happen next and was psychologically preparing for that chair with that drip in my arm. But this first year, I couldn't do that yet. When all the infusions had run in, we were disconnected and had to wait for a while. Then we were called behind the curtain one by one and again everything was measured and written down. When everyone was ready, we headed for the forest.
The starting signal sounded and I ran away like the others, almost all heading in the same direction. Some shouted ‘Go away!’, they didn't want me, didn't want to help me, I was distraught and all my senses were increasingly on edge. The sound became more and more terrible to my ears.
I ran further and further away, but eventually ended up back at the place where the people were sitting who would come looking for us and kill us, I was so horrified. I heard laughing and talking and went to look cautiously, but when I recognised them, my floor collapsed completely for a moment and I ran away as fast as I could. I heard two men laughing loudly and knew they had seen me and were laughing at me.
I ran dozens of metres and met no one and rested against a tree to think. What was I supposed to do, I completely panicked while running and couldn't think, but I had to think. I gasped, looked around and every rustle of leaves felt like extreme danger and before I could even think, I completely panicked again and started running again. Again and again, I ended up at a fence or with guards. As if I had a computer programme in my head, I tried to get as much visual as possible and come up with solutions.
Sometimes I heard a bang, sometimes I saw them take someone who was hanging lifelessly over their shoulder, like a shot rabbit.
I am alive, I have not been shot. There is much more to say than this bit, but that is not what this letter is for. But I can help a little in how and what to pray for. How I hoped I did get shot, because the ‘afterglow’ after these hunting parties was not a moment of relaxation, but of tremendous horror. And cult life went on as usual....
Thanksgiving
Farmstead 'the Inner Garden
We are grateful for the Hoeve and all it gives. The peace, nature, but also the fruit on the trees. God's creation is very clear to see!
Handlers
We are extremely grateful that several treatments are underway, that there are eager learners involved, and that we are on this journey together. Even during illness or other absences, we often manage to continue with treatments. We are very grateful for this!
Network friends
Being a network friend is not always easy, which is why we are all the more grateful that those who are network friends are faithful, patient and persistent! That which helps a survivor, they try to do within God's bounds.
Donations
We are grateful that donations come in every month to enable us to do our work. Without these donations, helping our target group becomes much harder.
Prayer groups
We are very grateful to know that more and more people and groups are praying for srm survivors. Prayer is a powerful weapon!
Information evenings and courses
We are grateful that people are attending the information evenings and that our work, but above all this injustice, is becoming better known in the Netherlands. We have also started a mini-course and held a well-attended information evening for churches. We see and speak to sincere people who are searching for what Yeshua wants them to do. We are grateful for that!
PRAY FOR ...
And all that ye shall ask faithfully in prayer ye shall receive (Matthew 21:22).
Handlers
Pray for the work of practitioners and that donations will continue to come in to fund this and that practitioners will receive wisdom and strength for their work. We still need practitioners to be able to adequately help our current beneficiaries and thus also make room for new applications.
Network friends
Pray that the people who are now network friends will endure to be able to be friends, while the person seeking help shows more and more of themselves. Pray for more network friends throughout the country, there really is a very big shortage of these and this sometimes literally gets in the way of getting out of the cult. Specifically, we are looking for networkers in the broad vicinity of Amsterdam, Zwolle, Gorinchem and Utrecht.
Work by Friends of Esthers
Pray for all the developments within Friends of Esthers. We are working hard to improve our knowledge and experience in ongoing abuse and we are working in several areas to spread our knowledge. For example, there are regular meetings for networkers, intercessors and so on where we transfer knowledge and meet each other. We also hold regular counselling sessions with people who are already working with a survivor, but for whom we don't have a treatment space within Friends of Esthers. In this way, we still help them to some extent with our knowledge.
There is a lot of time and energy in this work and each step requires a lot of wisdom. We need Yeshua very much in this, if He does not build the house, in vain toil the builders (Psalm 127:1). We are very much aware of this. Pray for His guidance with every step we take in every area of our work and with every person we deal with.
Prayer groups
Pray for more people to stand up against injustice and fight along in the spiritual world. Find people and start praying together. Ask others to join. Start... Yeshua will bless it.
Perpetrators
Continue to pray for offenders to encounter Yeshua and see what He is doing in the lives of survivors. Pray for courage and outstretched arms in their lives where they feel the safety and freedom to repent and start their lives anew.
Survivors
Pray for survivors who cannot be named for various reasons. Pray that they may know that they are valuable to Yeshua, pray that they will learn that there are people who can be trusted and above all that Yeshua is safe and is always with them. Pray that Yeshua will put safe people around them so that there will be opportunities for them to recover from what has been done to them.
Other survivors and helpers still waiting
We are in contact with several help seekers and due to the lack of network friends and practitioners, we cannot help everyone. Pray for wisdom for us for the applications that are already ongoing. For proper diagnostics and for the right doors to the right help. For churches that dare to open their doors to this group. Pray that those who have to wait for help will find courage and strength to persevere and not give up or will find another place where they can be helped. That they will experience that the great arms of Yeshua will carry them too.
People already in contact with a survivor (outside Friends of Esthers)
Pray also for people who are already in contact with a survivor. We hear many stories of people who do their best tremendously, are there very much for the person seeking help, but at the same time we also hear great distress because of the lack of proper care and people around them. Pray that churches will rise up to support these people, prayerfully and practically, and that people will continue to receive strength and love to keep up this work. No one can do this work alone!
Anjer
Carnation is a brave practitioner who has been working with survivors for some time. Her job really matters and for help and advice she is always sympathetic. She does have poor health, for which she has undergone surgery in the hope that it will improve again. Pray that she will keep the strength and courage to keep doing this work and feel her limits in this. Pray also for wisdom during the treatments.
Martin
Martin is a help-seeker at Friends of Esthers. His process is intense and has a lot of impact on himself and those around him. Pray that person parts learn to stay safe and that more and more parts choose the way of Yeshua. Pray also for Martin's partner and children. His partner is long-term overburdened, pray that she can sustain the process and that being overburdened does not adversely affect Martin.
Manoah
Manoah is a young son of a survivor who has severe memories of abuse. The little boy is in a process of recovery. Finding counselling for him is very difficult, even though he is so eager to tell. Pray for a counsellor who has the courage to take up this process. Pray that the family will be carried as they see and know that Yeshua has everything in His hand and is leading it.
Adam
Adam is a son of a survivor. Eager prayer that Yeshua puts the right people around him and around his family so that he dares to step out of this darkness. Much wisdom is needed and Yeshua will have to be the one to open the right doors and make his heart willing. Unfortunately, there are no new positive steps to report on Adam yet.
Ismael
Ismael is a grandchild of a survivor and experiences abuse in his early years. Unfortunately, there is no access to him yet to help him be and stay safe until now. Pray for open doors and for parents to address opportunities for exit! There is no current update on Ismael at this time.
Ladybird
Please pray for a good work-life balance, which is very difficult at the moment. In addition, she is struggling with the issue of truth/lie, please pray for clarity in this. Pray also for more networkers so that she feels safer to continue in her processes and that she can experience Yeshua's closeness in all this. In addition, prayer for trust in herself, others and the process she is in is important.
Ferdi
Ferdi has already had a long road in which he has faced a lot of opposition. Pray for open doors and Yeshua's guidance to bring the right people into his path so that the path to lasting freedom can be taken.
Ingrid
Pray that I will gain hope and confidence and come out of despair. I also ask for prayer that I dare to attach and that the Comforter can find me in my depths. I have a lot of tension and pain, pray that my body gets better, and that I learn to deal with people and stimuli. That not everything twists in my head. I don't dare pray for another place to live anymore, but I long for it very much. I long to belong to someone and be truly human. Someone who chooses for me.
Laura
Laura's recovery process is tough and intensive as many traumas come to the surface, often leaving her very tired. In addition, she is harassed in various ways by the cult network which causes her a lot of anxiety. She asks prayer for safety and for courage and strength to be able to sustain this process. She also asks prayer for her partner that he will be able to continue supporting her and that together they may experience the closeness of the Good Shepherd.
Janita
Prayer requested for wisdom and discernment in my work for Friends of Esthers, in addition, please pray for protection of my family and myself.
Esther
Over the past year, I have been learning to regulate and express my emotions more and more. This goes up and down. What a difficult process if you never learned to do that and when you did, you often split. Prayer for this is very welcome! Furthermore, the cult network does not leave me alone yet, but I am grateful that Yeshua keeps giving me wisdom how to deal with this and also protects me! Please also pray for wisdom in letting go of our children in this unsafe world. Furthermore, I am grateful for the strength and energy Yeshua gives me to be able to help other survivors!
Song for this period: Abba Father
Humbly
Humbly has been intensely involved with a survivor on a daily basis for many years. The suffering of this survivor is tough to see and experience every day, yet she perseveres! Pray that she will persevere, that she will receive wisdom and courage for steps she may take, and that she will feel carried by Yeshua! Pray also for possible open doors for the future to keep this work bearable.
Desiree
Desiree is a courageous woman who knows several survivors, cares for them and wants to be like a friend. She has also been given more tasks that allow her to develop and grow, but these tasks are tough. She often faces spiritual struggles through this work. Pray for protection and wisdom in the steps she takes and that she may know again and again what Yeshua wants her to do!
Geertje
We have not received any new update on Geertje herself. Thank you if you do want to continue praying for her! When new updates come again, we will report them.
Aline
Glad if you would continue to pray with me for recovery of my husband, in whose tinnitus i.c.f. noise sensitivity and burnout unfortunately there is no improvement yet. Also pray for courage to persevere and keep seeing perspective. Will you also continue to pray for my one client, for whom I have a big heart but for whom insufficient replacement has been found during my partial ‘care leave’ due to family circumstances. Will you pray that she may experience God's protective hand in her vulnerable inner process and in the help of other people around her? And will you also pray for me that I will always keep my eyes on Yeshua and thereby have a steady course in my thinking, feeling and doing?
Azarja
Azarja, son of one of our practitioners, is doing better and better, so much so that he will soon try to start an education. This is a very exciting step. Will you join us in praying that he will be able to handle this both energetically and mentally and that his joy in life will return? We also pray that this Christian training will help him take firm root in God's truth.
Spring
Spring is a practitioner of survivors and asks prayer for wisdom, discernment and protection in guiding a survivor.
Maria
Mary is a help-seeker and asks prayer for courage, to be able to let go of control more and more. Her process has also become more intense, so there is always fatigue. Will you pray that God will give extra strength to cope? And that in addition she also has energy to be able to do something that gives relaxation, so that there will still be some balance this time. And that God's strength and love will always give space to continue the process, even at times when it is very heavy and grief is experienced or when doubt undermines the process. Pray that Mary will be able to deal with this well, that the promise of life and a hopeful future through Him will always be of strength. She is grateful that He regularly shows that He is there!
Prayer calendar
Cult dates with ritual times, additional information and prayer points
It is very intensive for survivors to bring out specific information about each cult night, because each cult meeting is associated with many horrible memories, which then surface. It has therefore not been possible to get sufficient clarity on the specific times of all days. The times of 1am-3pm are not always fully covering: the cult often goes on longer and sometimes starts earlier. For certain cult groups, Friday night is fixed cult night. Friday is therefore a day that is extra tough for many survivors. Days like new moon and full moon are days when cult comes together extra and the intensity is heavier. Pray that these nights will be disrupted and the spiritual power they experience will be powerless.
Note: If it says February 25, it refers to the night of February 24-25.
25 February 1am-4pm
28 February 1am-5pmr
The toughest night of February with the most spiritual struggles. There are demonic activities with libations for Halloween.
3 March full moon 1am-3pm
19 March new moon 1am-3pm
26 March to 2 April preparations Good Friday
From the night of 25 to 26 March to the night of 1 to 2 April, there will be cult meetings every night from 1am-3am. This week is all about preparations for Good Friday and Easter. The build-up in this week, along with the rituals and sacrifices on Good Friday and Easter Day, makes the power the cult network experiences and sees in the spiritual world so great that they are convinced they are stronger than our God.
Victims are ‘prepared’ to be sacrificed, to attend orgies and there will be deliveries where babies are abused and sacrificed. There will be rituals and sacrifices of animals as well as humans and sex orgies involving demons. People are working up to the climax on 3 April. Pray for hope during these nights. That it is not hopeless, but that the victims will know that there are people who are on the ground for them these nights. Pray for the (new) mothers who will lose their babies (again). Pray for comfort and that Yeshua may show them where their baby is going, safe in the arms of Yeshua. April 2 is the full moon, so it is extra heavy.
3 April Good Friday 0.00 - 6.00 am
This night is dominated by the resurrection of satan. He is portrayed as the conqueror of evil (after all, Satan is seen as the good in the cult). Someone is sacrificed for his glory on an inverted cross.
Pray for the victim on the cross, that like Stephen, he may behold the glory of God and that this may be a testimony in the group. Pray that Satan and his henchmen cannot come, that there will be spiritual domes around the victims and that they will be untouchable. After all, for our God, all things are possible.
5 April Easter Monday 0.00 - 6.00
Today, Easter takes place in the cult. In the cult, it is not called Easter, it is the day of resurrection. During Easter, curses are specifically pronounced on everything good in the eyes of Yeshua. Death is sanctioned and attempts are made to destroy life. Children are raped on an upside-down cross, the curse upside down. A newborn baby is sacrificed and more.
6 April Easter Monday 1.00 - 4.00
The day of the great curse. It is a direct attack on the Christian life. The darkness comes together, as it were. Demons are summoned in large groups and sent out to the great adversary, God. After this ultimate session, a great orgy takes place in which babies are also used and die from the effects of these rapes.
17 April new moon 1am-3pm
21-30 April preparation week Walpurgis 1.00 - 3.00pm
This whole week is the cult festival, a preparation week for Walpurgis. It has become spring, the cult's fertility season. The beginning of spring, but above all the beginning of purification. During this week, attempts will be made to get children (aged between nine and 16) pregnant so that they can give birth to a child during Christmas. Some girls will be ‘saved’ for Walpurgis Night. They will not be used for sexual intercourse the week before and will be made pregnant with Walpurgis during a special ceremony. Their cycle is geared to these days, using fertility drugs.
30 April - 1 May Walpurgis
Cult meetings of 0.00 - 4.00 on Walpurgis Night and on 1 May during the day from 10.00 - 22.00 hour meetings with concluding hunting parties.
May 1 is a full moon and is therefore extra heavy. There are sacrifices with babies during these encounters, sex with people killed beforehand and orgies with mostly children under eight years old. It is heralded with a 25-year-old woman being burnt alive.
The next day, there will be meetings and when the sun sets, there will be hunts for children in forests. These hunting parties officially end this period, with the ‘best’ children remaining. Not all children survive the hunting parties.
Spiritual demonic activities are intense these days. Cult members strive to go as far as possible into ecstasy so that a deep, intense connection is felt with the spiritual world and their king, Satan. They worship him as we worship Yeshua. They see him as the light, the life and the answer. The real climax (between 3am and 4am on this night) is the spiritual interaction with demons and with Satan himself, if they have done well enough. It is experienced intensely, there is crying and they feel like god.
The darkness has all the freedom, there is no blockage, no light. This very freedom of the darkness is what feels so powerful and which makes it impossible for a victim to imagine being able to get out of this. The power of darkness is impossible to match... at least that's how it feels in that moment.
Specific prayer points are:
That the victims feel that there is a God who is bigger and stronger. That deep down inside they feel the lifeline with Yeshua and keep the hope that there is outcome.
That perpetrators start doubting, doubt is sin in the cult. Doubt can kill them, but it is the only way to possibly get out.
That Yeshua with His mighty army of angels will disrupt the demonic spiritual rapture. That His battle during this night will be present in that space of the cult and everyone there will witness the power of our King Yeshua.
That the meetings will be disrupted and in the process the victims will not be harmed.
That no new spiritual bonds and demons can enter the victims, that no new hooks will be struck so that freedom will be closer than ever.
That the meetings cannot go ahead.
Outcasts have a very difficult time this night, they may be attacked and spiritually ‘taken away’ or raped. Pray for them that they are under Yeshua's protection and the attacks cannot reach them.
2 May Cult Fest 1.00 - 3.00 a.m.
4 May Remembrance Day 0.00 - 3.00 hours
During Memorial Day at the cult, there is sex with dead people and demons. These demons pose as important deceased cult figures and there is a sex orgy with them.
5 May Liberation Day 0.00 - 10.00
14 May Ascension 0.00 - 5.00
This is a tough night.
16 May new moon 1am-3pm
24 and 25 May Pentecost
Cult gatherings on both nights from 0.00 - 3.00. It is a night of mostly demonic activities celebrated in a physical gathering. The summoning of demons and Satan takes centre stage, with the aim of shedding power and territory from them. One way this is done is through a sacrifice with a newborn born in the cult. This is done in local cult groups scattered across the country. Afterwards, as almost always, there is a sex orgy.
More information
For more information on satanic ritual abuse, see e.g.
https://www.vpro.nl/argos/media/afleveringen/2020/uitzending-27-juni-ritueel-misbruik.html
https://www.vpro.nl/argos/media/afleveringen/2018/Het-verhaal-van-Lisa.html
https://argos.vpro.nl/artikelen/mocht-haagse-rechter-oordelen-over-kindermisbruik
NB: the above highly informative documentaries have unfortunately been taken offline by Argos, but can still be found elsewhere on the internet for those who do a quick search.
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