Prayer letter winter 2025-2026
A Gideon army; prayer letter concerning satanic ritual abuse (SRA), published by the Friends of Esthers foundation.
The purpose of this prayer letter is to initiate a prayer movement in the Netherlands and abroad to free victims from the shackles of satanic ritual abuse.
In addition, to make people aware of the existence of satanic networks under the surface of our Western society. So that a network of passionate people gradually emerges to offer spiritual and practical support to victims (and perpetrators) who choose freedom.
This prayer letter, with topics such as Winter, Christmas, and New Year, begins with a reflection by Gerard. This is followed by two contributions from Esther, the first about winter, entitled ‘The lion awakens from hibernation’, and the second entitled ‘Happy New Year’, followed by points of thanksgiving and prayer. Finally, there is a prayer calendar for the coming period. We hope that the information in this prayer letter will help you to pray with growing understanding and perseverance for all things necessary to put an end to this terrible evil of SRM. So that many lives may be saved and restored to the glory of the one God who is perfect and good.
Praying (by Gerard)
Praying is committing yourself to justice. That unusual word, justice, appears twice in the Beatitudes. That is remarkable because there are only eight Beatitudes in Matthew 5. In them, Yeshua presents us with core values about His Kingdom. Such as humility, peacemaking, and purity of heart. And twice, something about justice.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be filled (verse 5) Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness' sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven (verse 10)
Hunger and thirst are active states; they are more than just a feeling of appetite. You actively set to work to bring about greater justice. This stems from a strong inner desire for people to treat each other well. That they give each other the right and space to be themselves and encourage and help each other in this.
Therefore, we pray that the works of darkness will be broken and that survivors will receive strength and help to be freed from unrighteousness. How we wish this for them with all our hearts!
The second aspect is: if you are concerned with justice, you will encounter opposition. I noticed that we are not persecuted because of our faith, because of what we think about God. We are persecuted for what we do: bringing light into situations that cannot bear the light. This provokes opposition from those who have an interest in injustice, in darkness. Until the Kingdom is fully established, this will continue to be the case. So let us also pray for one another to persevere.
Praying is committing yourself to justice. God says that you will then be twice as happy, because you are living close to God's heart. May you realise and experience this when you pray.
Winter (by Esther)
Winter is coming again. Difficult cult days lie ahead of us, but also behind us. However, the coming months will be filled with even more dark days, during which the difference with the normal world sometimes feels as big as stepping out of a cult.
Families getting together, eating together. Enjoying the holidays together and perhaps going on a winter sports holiday. As a survivor, these days, weeks and months are very difficult and, above all, very lonely, and it is incredibly hard to keep fighting.
Years ago, I shared a piece of this struggle in my diary. I called it The Lion Awakes from Hibernation. The cult that draws you in, the temptation to obey and follow habits, whether it involves pain and murder or not. A pattern that is not easy to break, especially when all kinds of emotions come into play that you have never learned to deal with, except through pain or drugs.
How important is it then to have reliable people around you who show you that pain, murder and rape are not the path you need to take, and who are happy to support you in this?.
The lion out of hibernation
My head is completely immersed in the cult, life here and now still feels so unfamiliar. So far removed from my reality. It doesn't belong to me. I am not of this world, I am not like other people. I am constantly holding myself back from living on autopilot. Autopilot isn't always a bad thing, but my autopilot is a programme that is activated and controlled by the cult. I see the signs and want to respond based on what I have been taught. I see how other people don't do it and I slam on the brakes, but the shame affects me so deeply. I don't fit in, I don't belong here.
I feel like a robot that wants to be as it is programmed, but it is not allowed, it is not possible. It is as if I am fighting with a lion that is locked up. It is a huge struggle that I cannot sustain for much longer. He is almost out of his cage.
That lion who wants to break free can be perfect. Doing exactly what he needs to do, almost super perfectionist, and if that doesn't work, then we'll make sure we can do it anyway.
In this ‘normal’ world, I can never achieve that. Even being a little bit perfect is impossible. It's maddening that something so incredibly necessary is impossible... The next moment, I think, I want to go back. I want to have that life where I feel good, useful, important, and know what is right and what is wrong...
I have gone into a deep hibernation, but meanwhile the lion is becoming more and more awake. All processes are increasingly activated, codes are flying around my ears, the signals throughout everything are becoming stronger and the impulses to respond to them are becoming stronger. I cannot put them into words, it sees deep inside me. There are parts of me that know all this, recognise it and want to do something about it. I am ashamed because this is not good. I am afraid that I will not be able to keep it up, but I do not know how to ask for help.
In recent weeks, there have been constant moments when the cult is present. Outside, at work, on the phone, in emails, on billboards, on the road, and everywhere else, their language can be seen and heard. That language falls silent when I help others understand other survivors. But when the world seems deaf and dumb, that language comes through even louder. It's a balance I can't maintain because the cult and the world are so much more. They shout so much louder and we, the ones who know the cult, don't feel strong.
of a Survivor, ‘captured’
Happy New Year (by Esther)
I feel drawn to leave. Just leave. I want to go outside and get in my car. I know so clearly that my car keys are in my coat pocket. All I have to do is go downstairs. Just step over my partner, down the stairs, and I'm there.
I don't know where I would go. That's not the question at all. I need to get to my car with the keys and then everything will be fine. When I think about how it feels and what will happen when I'm in the car, I feel calm. Then I feel relaxed and happy for a moment. That's my destination. I don't understand it myself, and because I know it's not okay to have these desires and because I can still think that the idea of wanting to leave in the middle of the night but not knowing where to go is strange, I am sane enough to know that I have to stop myself.
Every year, after 1 a.m., the urge begins. Everyone must go to bed. Everyone must be in a coma. Normally, we celebrated New Year's Eve elsewhere, I let the children stay over and I could go anywhere undisturbed. I just don't know where to go.
Now it's almost 2 o'clock and the urge is so strong that I no longer know how to lie down, think or act. I can no longer think clearly about what is right and wrong and I feel myself sinking further and further away. Someone (another part of my personality) is trying to take over, as it turns out later.
I see some kind of threads trying to pull me up, as if I could fly through the air and I am being torn away from my skin.
I would like to ask for help now, but I can't anymore. My body is exhausted and I can no longer move my arms, no sound comes out of my mouth and I feel uncontrolled, but motionless. The next moment, I am bombarded by colours that disappear until it becomes a grey-black surface. In a kind of timeless space, I feel myself floating and I feel things happening in my head, but I can't see anything and I can't do anything.
I am in a kind of battle with myself in that timeless space and I sometimes see colours breaking through, while my body seems to no longer exist. And then suddenly I am back in my body. I can move again. There is peace and those colours and black-grey areas are gone. I am exhausted and fall asleep when it is almost 4 o'clock. I dream about a situation in a forest where I am hanging from a tree trunk. These are fragments where I am so tired and sometimes fall asleep and wake up again from the pain. Someone suddenly rapes me, and then I fall asleep again due to loneliness and exhaustion. When I wake up in my bed, I am exhausted. It is morning, and we carry on. We still have a normal life, with children, and things that need to be done. It is New Year's Day again, and I drag myself out of bed and pretend that nothing has happened. Happy New Year!
Note on Happy New Year (by Esther):
I wrote the above piece during my process of leaving. Every year, I attended the ‘celebrations’ on 1 January until I increasingly chose not to go there anymore. It was a battle between parts of myself that had differing opinions on the matter. Together with an immense spiritual war and conditioning of my brain, this was a process that took years.
Because I did not obey and did not show up at that time, parts of my personality disappeared spiritually, and later in the process, they came to remove me spiritually from my body. My soul left and was raped and used during the ‘celebrations’. The struggle to become spiritually free took on a new dimension.
Thanksgiving
Farmstead 'the Inner Garden
We are grateful for the Hoeve and all it gives. The peace, nature, but also the fruit on the trees. God's creation is very clear to see!
Handlers
We are extremely grateful that several treatments are underway, that there are eager learners involved, and that we are on this journey together. Even during illness or other absences, we often manage to continue with treatments. We are very grateful for this!
Network friends
Being a network friend is not always easy, which is why we are all the more grateful that those who are network friends are faithful, patient and persistent! That which helps a survivor, they try to do within God's bounds.
Donations
We are grateful that donations come in every month to enable us to do our work. Without these donations, helping our target group becomes much harder.
Prayer groups
We are very grateful to know that more and more people and groups are praying for srm survivors. Prayer is a powerful weapon!
Information evenings and courses
We are grateful that people are attending the information evenings and that our work, but above all this injustice, is becoming better known in the Netherlands. We have also started a mini-course and held a well-attended information evening for churches. We see and speak to sincere people who are searching for what Yeshua wants them to do. We are grateful for that!
PRAY FOR ...
And all that ye shall ask faithfully in prayer ye shall receive (Matthew 21:22).
Handlers
Pray for the work of practitioners and that donations will continue to come in to fund this work, and that practitioners will receive wisdom and strength for their work. We still need practitioners in order to be able to adequately help our current clients and thus also have room for new registrations.Network friends
Pray that the people who are currently network friends will continue to be friends, even as the person seeking help increasingly reveals their true self. Pray for more network friends throughout the country, as there is a serious shortage of them and leaving the cult can sometimes literally stand in the way. Specifically, we are looking for networkers in the wider areas of Amsterdam, Zwolle, Gorinchem and Utrecht.Work by Friends of Esthers
Pray for all developments within Friends of Esthers. We are working hard to improve the diagnosis of CDIS (complex DIS) in cases of ongoing abuse, and we are working in several areas to spread our knowledge. For example, there are regular meetings for networkers, prayer partners, etc., where we share knowledge and meet each other. We also regularly hold consultations with people who are already working with a survivor, but for whom we do not have treatment space within Friends of Esthers. In this way, we are able to help them along the way with our knowledge. A lot of time and energy goes into this work, and every step requires a great deal of wisdom. We need Yeshua very much in this, for unless the Lord builds the house, the builders labour in vain (Psalm 127:1). We are very aware of this. Pray for His guidance in every step we take in every area of our work and with every person we deal with.Finances for ‘the Inner Garden’
Last year, we started the Hoeve, a place where survivors can safely work through their traumas so that they can and dare to step out. Our project still needs money to renovate the large barn. Please pray for finances, builders and building materials for this, so that we can convert it into an office and training/meeting space where we can see clients, train practitioners and networkers, and meet together in a safe place.Prayer groups
Pray that more people will stand up against injustice and join the battle in the spiritual realm. Seek out people and pray together. Ask others to join you. Begin... Yeshua will bless it.Perpetrators
Continue to pray that perpetrators will encounter Yeshua and see what He is doing in the lives of survivors. Pray for courage and open arms in their lives where they feel safe and free to repent and start their lives anew.Survivors
Pray for survivors who, for various reasons, cannot be named. Pray that they may know that they are valuable to Yeshua, pray that they will learn that there are people who can be trusted and, above all, that Yeshua is safe and always with them. Pray that Yeshua will surround them with safe people so that they will have opportunities to recover from what has been done to them.Other survivors and helpers still waiting
We are in contact with several people seeking help, but due to a lack of network friends and practitioners, we are currently unable to help everyone. Pray for wisdom for us regarding the applications we have already received. Pray for good diagnostics and for the right doors to open for the right help. Pray for churches that dare to open their doors to this group. Pray that those who have to wait for help will find courage and strength to persevere and not give up or find another place where they can be helped. Pray that they will experience that Yeshua's big arms will carry them too.People who are already in contact with a survivor (outside of Friends of Esthers)
Pray also for people who are already in contact with a survivor. We hear many stories of people who are doing their utmost, who are there for those in need, but who at the same time are in great need themselves due to the lack of proper care and people around them. Pray that churches will rise up to support these people, both in prayer and in practical ways, and that they will continue to receive strength and love to persevere in this work. No one can do this work alone!Anjer
Anjer is a brave therapist who has been working with survivors for some time. Her work is truly important, and she is always willing to offer help and advice. However, she has poor health, which has deteriorated further in recent times. Pray that she will retain the strength and courage to continue this work and to recognise her limits in this regard. Also pray for wisdom during the treatments.Martin
Martin is seeking help from Friends of Esthers. His process is intense and has a significant impact on himself and those around him. Pray that his personality parts remain safe and that more and more parts choose the way of Yeshua. Also pray for Martin's partner and children. His partner has been under prolonged stress; pray that she can persevere through the process and that her stress does not have a negative impact on Martin.Manoah
Manoah is the young son of a survivor who has serious memories of abuse. The boy is in the process of recovery. Pray that the right counsellors will be found and that the parents will be able to cope with what has happened. Pray that the family will be sustained by seeing and knowing that Yeshua has everything in His hands and is in control.Adam
Adam is the son of a survivor. Please pray that Yeshua will surround him and his family with the right people, so that he will dare to step out of this darkness. Much wisdom is needed, and Yeshua will have to be the one to open the right doors and prepare his heart. Unfortunately, there are no positive developments to report about Adam yet.Ismael
Ismael is the grandchild of a survivor and has already experienced abuse in his young years. Unfortunately, there is still no access to him to help him be and remain safe. Pray for open doors and for his parents to take advantage of opportunities to escape! There is no current update on Ismael at this time.Ladybird
Please pray for a good balance between work and private life, which is currently very difficult. She is also struggling with the theme of truth/lies, so please pray for clarity in this area. Please also pray for more networkers so that she feels safer to continue in her processes and that she can experience the presence of Yeshua in all of this.Myrthe
Myrthe says she is very grateful for the prayers for her in recent times. However, she no longer feels it is appropriate to be mentioned in the prayer letter because Friends of Esthers is no longer involved in her treatment. Of course, it would be wonderful if you would continue to pray for her and her process, even though she will no longer be mentioned in this prayer letter. May God guide her path to complete freedom and provide her with everything she needs to get there!Ferdi
He has already come a long way, facing much opposition. Pray for open doors and Yeshua's guidance to bring the right people into his path, so that the road to lasting freedom can be taken.Ingrid
Ingrid is a brave person who asks for help and never gives up. She has suffered greatly, but her desire to recover and help others is even greater. There have been major breakthroughs in her process, but her suffering is intense. She longs for a living relationship with the true Comforter! Please also pray for safety where she lives and for a new place to live in the near future.Laura
Please pray for Laura and her partner that they will both receive the strength and courage to continue Laura's difficult recovery process. Prayer for Laura's safety is still very important. In addition, it is important that Laura finds peace of mind and that more and more people come to know the Good Shepherd.Esther
Over the past few months, I have been learning more and more to regulate and express my emotions. What a difficult process when you have never learned to do so and when you did, you often split. Splitting hasn't happened for a long time now, pray that it stays that way and that new ways are found within me to deal with emotions in an increasingly healthy way. I am also grateful for the strength and energy Yeshua gives me to help other survivors! Song for this period: The glory belongs to You!Humbly
Humbly has been intensively involved with a survivor on a daily basis for many years. Witnessing and experiencing this survivor's suffering every day is difficult, yet she perseveres! Pray that she will persevere, that she will receive wisdom and courage for the steps she needs to take, and that she will know how to behave through Yeshua! Also pray for possible open doors for the future to keep this work bearable.Desiree
She is a courageous woman who knows several survivors, cares for them, and wants to be a friend to them. She has also been given more responsibilities, which allow her to develop and grow, but these responsibilities are difficult. She often faces spiritual struggles because of this work. Pray for protection and wisdom in the steps she takes and that she may always know what Yeshua wants her to do!Geertje
Geertje's case is still ongoing. Following a positive decision by the court, an appeal has been lodged, which has increased the level of insecurity for Geertje. In addition, the opposing party has obtained their address due to an ‘error’, which means that there seems to be no respite for Geertje and her family. Pray that the case will be resolved without any legal conditions being imposed, so that Geertje and her family can recover.Aline
I am grateful for my health and strength at this stage of my life and that the community work we left behind in Amsterdam continues. Over the past year, I have reduced my workload considerably due to prolonged illness in our family. Much of it has been taken over by others, for which I am very grateful. However, suitable replacements have not been found for all clients. I would very much like to see God's hand in the situation of one client in particular, for whom I have a great deal of affection. It would also be greatly appreciated if you would join me in praying for the recovery of my husband, who has been suffering from severe tinnitus combined with burnout for the past two months.Azarja
Azariah has made great strides towards recovery in recent months, and many of the prayer points from the previous prayer letter have been answered! Prayer for complete recovery of body, soul and spirit remains necessary, as his recovery and healing process is extremely difficult. Pray that this very difficult period will lay a deep and solid foundation for his life. That he will become a believer like the tree in Psalm 1 with deep roots.Prayer calendar
Cult dates with ritual times, additional information and prayer points
It is very intense for survivors to retrieve specific information about each cult night, because every cult meeting is associated with many horrific memories, which then resurface. It was therefore not always possible to obtain sufficient clarity about the specific times. The times of 1:00-3:00 a.m. do not always cover everything: the cult often continues longer and sometimes starts earlier. For certain cult groups, Friday night is a fixed cult night. Friday is therefore a day that is particularly difficult for many survivors.
Days such as the new moon and full moon are days when the cult meets extra often and the intensity is greater. Pray that these nights will be disrupted and that the spiritual power they experience will be powerless. (N.B.: if it says 3 December, it refers to the night of 2 to 3 December.)
3 December 1am-4pm Tonight marks the beginning of preparations for the ‘celebration’ we call Sinterklaas. In cult, the Freyr festival is celebrated, which is the origin of our Sinterklaas festival. Demons are summoned, but also sent away when your heart is ‘pure’ and your gifts to the darkness are good. The more control you can exercise over them, the ‘better’ you are at it.
Sacrifices are made, but also torture is inflicted on apostates in order to become ‘better’ at this and thus make sacrifices.
4 December 1am-4pm Same as 3 December
5 December, 1:00 a.m. to 4:00 a.m. (This night is particularly difficult because of the full moon and supermoon. On this night, you are taught in the cult that it is gift-giving time. Have you been loyal to Satan or not, and what have you left for him this year? This is mainly at the leadership level, but it has a direct impact on those below, because it can also mean that your ‘leader’ is replaced, forcing you to learn again what this new ‘leader’ wants and desires from you, often resulting in more torture. As a victim, you may also be given away as a gift on this night to another cult member who is allowed to do whatever he or she wants with you that night.
16 to 23 December, 1:00-3:00 a.m. (The night of 20 December is particularly difficult due to the new moon.) This is the week of preparation for Christmas. Children will be kidnapped, and children and adults obtained through human trafficking will be taken to places where they will be prepared for the Christmas cult days. Pregnant women, who have been impregnated with the aim of giving birth during Christmas, will also be prepared with stimulants and examinations. There are daily meetings, with the weekly meeting being compulsory, as well as the evening of 23 December.
From 10 p.m. on 23 December, the cultural activities will continue non-stop until 5 a.m. on 25 December., From 23 to 25 December, preparations are made for the grand climax, with highlights occurring between midnight and 3 a.m. Because it involves many hours in a row, this is very difficult and exhausting for children/survivors. Those who no longer attend the cult become exhausted with the constant fear of being caught, and those who do attend sometimes have to fight to the death to keep going. Pray for strength, courage and faith that a new day will come when everything will be better.
Night of 23 to 24 December until Christmas Eve 11:59pm The eve of Christmas is the most difficult night of this period. Prior to this day (often on the night of 31 October to 1 November), a chosen one has already been selected for the holy sacrifice. A sacrifice in which someone is considered a kind of virgin and serves the entire ‘family’ by giving her life for the higher purpose of satisfying Satan and his servants. The demonic activity during this evening is immense and for many victims the worst aspect of the evening. Being raped by demons is truly horrific. Pray for the victims. Pray that they will be protected from the demonic activities. That no demons will remain in them and that they will feel that a stronger power, the power of Yeshua, reigns and will prevail. Pray for the perpetrators to be blinded and that there will be a kind of dome over the ceremony so that the demons cannot even get there.
24 December to 25 December, Christmas Day, between 0:00 and 5:00 a.m.. (most intense between 2:00-3:00 a.m.) The new life has begun. On this day, Satan's desire to have power over life and death is ‘celebrated’. The cult members will confess and confirm this with the sacrifice of a firstborn child. After this, the newcomers, who are young virgins under the age of 12, will be raped on an inverted cross in order to increase the sacrilege of Yeshua. Pray for the mother who is having her first child and immediately loses it. Pray for a deep trust that the child will be safe with Yeshua. Also pray for the children who are raped on the cross, but also during the orgy that follows.
For the night of 25 to 26 December, it concerns the period between 0.00 - 5.00 a.m. (most intense between 2:00 and 3:00 a.m. and the last quarter hour). Purification after the new life. After the new life, all evil must be destroyed in order to lead a holy life. Such is the theory of the cult. The group will unanimously punish the apostates by hanging them and beating them to death. Everyone present will have to beat the person who has been hanged until they bleed, causing this person to eventually succumb to their wounds. The sentence is also confirmed by tying someone in the middle of a fire pit and setting it alight. This is done with less ‘important’ apostates in the group. Pray for a group uprising within the group. That they will realise together that what they are doing is wrong and that they will become disgusted by it. That they will rebel against these rituals and that peer pressure will work positively to protect the victims who are seen as inferior and evil. Yeshua can do this!
31 December 1.00-4.00 new year's preparation
31 December-1 January 10 p.m.-10 a.m. (climax between 1:30 and 2:30 a.m.) Then a count takes place to see whether you are present or not, an important moment. Especially a festive occasion among important cult members. The regional groups are not always active during this night, but the national groups are. Pray that these people will be seen and their deeds exposed! If you are helping a survivor in any way, do not go to bed at 1 a.m., but stay awake with him or her until 3 a.m. It is a small effort, but incredibly important!
3 January, 1:00–3:00 a.m. full moon
6 January 1.00-3.00
7 January 1.00-3.00
12-13 January 11.59-5.00pm New Year's party
18 January, 1:00-3:00 a.m., new moon
20–27 January, 1:00–3:00 a.m. ‘party’ week meetings every night from 1am-3am. During this week, it is mainly about sex with children, including babies and the sacrifice of adult women.
29 January 1:00–3:00 a.m., 30 January 1:00–3:00 a.m., 31 January 12:00 a.m.–5:00 a.m. These days are marked by a new season. New goals and new agreements and new tasks and positions. If the members have fulfilled their duties after 5 December, they are now sworn in. Some join a new higher degree/position. Others must resign from their positions and take on ‘lower’ tasks. Joining and resigning from ranks in the cult. This is an important period for victims, because when their ‘leader’ resigns – which means being demoted – they also have a harder time. Pray that this will be a turning point for many, so that they will have the courage to leave!
1 February, 1:00–3:00 a.m. full moon
2 February 1am-4pm
14 February 1am-4pm
17 February, 1:00–3:00 a.m. new moon
Will you continue to pray with us?
The next prayer letter will be published at the end of February 2026!
On behalf of team Friends of Esthers,
Esther, Aline and Janita
This prayer letter may be widely distributed, especially in churches. ‘My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge,’ says the Bible (Hosea 4:6). Let us no longer look away. Let us fix our eyes on Yeshua and the injustice, and let us embrace those who are trapped in it and bring them before the throne of God!
For more information on satanic ritual abuse, see e.g.
https://www.vpro.nl/argos/media/afleveringen/2020/uitzending-27-juni-ritueel-misbruik.html
https://www.vpro.nl/argos/media/afleveringen/2018/Het-verhaal-van-Lisa.html
NB: the above highly informative documentaries have unfortunately been taken offline by Argos, but can still be found elsewhere on the internet for those who do a quick search.
For whom and by whom?
This prayer letter is for any Christian who wants to join in prayer based on good information. It is an initiative of Esther, Aline and Janita. Esther was born into a church family that worshipped Satan and has struggled to break free from the grip of this cult. Aline professionally helps survivors of satanic ritual abuse step out of this cult and come to recovery physically, emotionally and spiritually. Janita is active in prayer work around srm and is a practitioner.
If you know people who might be interested in joining us in prayer, please feel free to forward this letter and the prayer points. If you no longer wish to receive this prayer letter and the prayer points, an email back will suffice.
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