This is how Good Friday and Easter feels to me, having grown up in a cult for years from my babyhood until I was 16 years old.... And for a number of years now I've really got rid of the cult.... Because a lot of things just went on in my adult life.... contacts that were unhealthy and so also affected my health. I had fled the cult from the age of 16 but I was not really redeemed. Years of being sexually abused, raped, trafficked as a whore as a piece of property and tortured..... Being dressed up or you were a sex toy. Being hunted like a piece of game, running naked in the woods, hiding and hoping you weren't found.... Year after year, my little children's feet ran over branches and spines without feeling them anymore because the other pain was worse... if they got you.

How I am doing now... I am doing a lot better because of the right help I am getting from friends and my therapist. I understand my inner world better now... My personality parts are allowed to be there and tell what they have been through. This also allows me to just do what I want to do on Good Friday and Easter and no longer be defined by the past.

Esther talks about the reality of spiritual struggles

The satanic cult knows the spiritual world very well; this is also where they train people. Taken by the hand by demons, the cult tries to gain more and more ground. This is how they want to bend the world to their will, so that Satan has more room to manoeuvre. And so that his plan is carried out, not Jeshua's.

For example, when the cult wants to pull people over, they use entrances into people's minds. When there is sin in someone's life, demons have the freedom to have influence in the person's mind, then they can hook in and claim a place. Entrances for this can be created by sin, for example, but it can also be the case that demons are already present in someone that they can latch on to.

The piece where the demon can dwell is a piece of captivity. So a person's soul can be partly captive and partly free. That sometimes makes it so complicated in churches when one's own brothers and sisters do worship God and actually seek Him with desire, but where there is also captivity to be seen in their reactions, behaviour or lives.

The cult knows that when they move and do things in the spiritual world, they also bring change in the physical world. They bend the world to their will by carrying out premeditated actions. Sin in a human life is an open gate for people of the cult who have a mission to destroy someone's life. Let me give an example. We should know what we are fighting against, Against governments and powers, not against flesh and blood says the Bible.

I learned to step out of my body. Through 'flying' as many personality parts call it, I started 'visiting' people. I could find their weak spots by simply observing them. When I entered a house in spirit (premeditated, because in this case the man was our target, pre-arranged in the cult) I observed the characters of him and his housemates. Soon weaknesses were evident. A marital quarrel was an entry point for (having) an email with a pornographic picture sent to the husband and the entry point was laid. I reported to the cult that the husband sometimes sat alone at his computer and I reported when he had an argument with his wife. On that night they had to send an e-mail, then there was an entrance. I saw the man sitting angrily behind his computer; his wife had gone to bed angry. They had not made up. The argument was about money the wife had spent and he disagreed. I saw bitterness in his mind and wanted to trigger it, but that was not yet possible because he was not yet committed. When the email came in and he opened it, he was shocked. He clicked it away, thought and opened it again. He looked closely. I saw how his mind opened up to lust and the moment I began to sit on his trousers as an outed spirit, he started googling porn. The feeling I gave him through my presence, despite him not seeing me, would be my hold when I saw him again in real life. I knew his entrance. Mentally.

After this, we worshipped in the satanic assembly. Satan and demons were abundant there. The more there were, the more presence of power you experienced and the more easily you went along with thoughts that belonged to darkness. With the man in mind, we cursed him. We paved the way for even more griping, even more misery in this man's life.

The man who had opened the porn sheet and had not distanced himself from it had an opening. He was a well-known preacher and the next day he spoke at a conference. A Christian conference. I stood at the back of the room and instead of worshipping along with Christians who were there, I was invoking Satan and feeling the demons moving inside me. Feeling that it was not myself who was ruling in me, but Satan, I made a connection with him by making eye contact. The moment we made eye contact, his sun moment from the moment of watching porn before it was sparked. I could through my mind, which had a line now with him, give him the same feeling that first gave shame, but soon gave desire. Desire for more, the hook was set in the opening. After the conference, I had a chat with him. He didn't recognise me when he looked at me, but I felt my mind and his meet and recognise each other from the moment earlier at the computer.

And as we talked about preaching, my mind connected even more with this man's mind. The advances I was making were coming in more and more, and when I felt his mind was ready, I walked away. Hold on, he said. I'm in the Bastion, room 235. I'll be there in an hour. Over an hour later, I was at his door. He was sorry, tried to brush me off again for a moment, but my preparation won out over his attempt to be stronger than his sin. I seduced him and after really binding him to me by drawing him into adultery, I left the hotel room. The sin entrance was complete and Satan could move on in his life. Repenting was (for most men I similarly deceived) too difficult. Captivity. This man went completely astray and hereafter brought more and more false teaching: satan had him in his power and he became a plaything of darkness.

Another time, I had an assignment with a female preacher. She was full of the Spirit of God and when she spoke it sometimes hurt me. Still, I believed in the power of darkness and went to her mini-conference full of preparation and good spirits.

I would, as soon as she spoke a word in which I could cast doubt, capitalise on this by giving thoughts that would make her hesitate for a moment. Spiritually, I could see with what authority she spoke the words and when there were gaps in this, I had my entrance and my moment to act. To this I could catch up and the demons that were with me I could lead to the opening.

The moment I mentally attacked her, I saw her fall silent. She stopped walking back and forth on stage, suddenly looked at me intensely and spoke loudly to the demons inside me. It felt like dagger stabs and my ears hurt. She took authority over this spiritual attack and I left the room defeated. She saw what I was doing and immediately took action with the authority she was allowed to assume. She was so focused on Jeshua that I could not find an entrance where the hooks could stay. This is how we are supposed to live.

This is a piece on how the cult works, however I have worked. During Easter, curses are specifically pronounced on everything alive in the eyes of Jeshua. Death is sanctioned and life is attempted to be destroyed. Children are raped on an upside-down cross, the curse on its head. A newborn baby is sacrificed and more.

Easter is a spiritual battle in a spiritual world, which we as Christians need to be aware of. Are we going to eat Easter eggs or are we going to worship Jeshua because He conquered death, paid for our sins and got rid of our iniquity, so that we may and can stay very close to Him, under His protection, by grace. He alone is worthy to be exalted in truth and worship. To Him belongs all power, honour and glory. Do we give it to Him or to darkness?

Easter: Jesus victorious!

Many people are unaware of the battle being waged for their souls. A life-and-death battle between God and his kingdom of love and life on the one hand and Satan and his kingdom of destruction and darkness on the other. Esther's testimony shows us how bloody serious this battle is being fought from the kingdom of darkness and how necessary it is to live a holy life in which sin of any kind has no place. Jesus shows us that this is possible, which we celebrate at Easter. Jesus broke the power of Satan and in union with Him it is possible to live in true freedom, love and joy.

Esther's testimony shows how demonic powers can enable people to do things God never intended for people. Esther learned very young in her life - through extreme torture - how to exit from your body. It is reminiscent of the out-of-body experiences that many people with 'near death' experiences talk about. But Esther also learned how - with the help of dark powers - she could go to other places as an exited spirit. A reality known in new age and occult circles with terms like astral travel or astral projection.

We also read in the Bible that there are very special moments when God himself or an angel takes someone 'in the spirit'. This happens e.g. to Ezekiel (chapter 8) and John (Rev 21:10). Ezekiel even has to do things in that capacity (8:8) and this also happens to John (Rev. 11:1,2). Apparently, 'travelling in the spirit' is possible with the help of God and his angels or with the help of Satan and his demons. It happened to John and Ezekiel, but they were not looking for this.

The only proper way to contact the spiritual world is through the Holy Spirit, through Jesus Christ, which is the Way God Himself has paved for us. God has expressly forbidden contact with the spiritual world or seeking supernatural abilities through other means, see e.g. Deuteronomy 18:9-11, 2 Chronicles 33:6 and Galatians 5:19-26. Those who do so get caught up in Satan's cunning and dark snares.

In the days around Easter, let us struggle together in prayer for victims and perpetrators still trapped in the deep darkness of the satanic cult. In the annex you will find concrete prayer points. Take them to your prayer group, or if you don't have one, set one up. Even after Easter, there are many cult nights and celebrations in the coming months. Be assured that your efforts in prayer will be used by God in this life-and-death struggle.

PRAY FOR ....

For awareness in churches and congregations of the existence of these satanic practices, so that victims dare to come forward and, with the help of a solid network of trusted people, dare to step out.

Many survivors are seeking help, through Fragile Wing or through the website lichtopsrm. Pray that Jesus will open the right doors for them, even if people and resources fall so much short at this time. Pray also for discernment and wisdom for us.

Pray for families to be a house of light for survivors, where they are welcomed and allowed to feel safe. Pray for more families to come and take this place in God's Kingdom.

There are far too few therapists available. Without therapy and trauma treatment, getting out is not possible. Pray for more therapists to become skilled in this and to enter into this process from God's love.

Protection of volunteers and therapists helping these victims.

Safe places to accommodate people who want to get out.

For blessing on detachment and recovery processes of victims trying to fight their way out of the cult.

Many victims are besieged by cult members when they move outside their homes, e.g. by cars following them. Pray for protection.

Many survivors of ritual abuse suffer a lot of triggers due to all the compulsions and coercions from the government, such as mouth guards (not being allowed to talk, masks), the pressure to get vaccinated (forced injections to induce childbirth, among other things), having to prove that you are good enough by showing a QR code, confusing communication about what is and isn't your responsibility (vaccinate you are doing it for someone else) and much more. Pray for them.

God's word tells us: do not participate in the unfruitful practices of darkness, rather expose them (Ephesians 5:11): Pray for crimes of satanic network to come to light nationally and internationally.

Pray for the Fragile Wing memorial day in June and for the monument Fragile Wing wants to realise for survivors of ritual abuse to remember their children and other loved ones and give recognition to their loss. Pray for finances. Pray for inspiration. And pray for a location for the memorial.

People

Christa

Christa is going through a tough period. Pray that she will cling to Jeshua and light and truth will prevail. Pray also for everyone who stands by her in any way.

Jan

Thank you very much for your prayers for Jan. He will get more support at school because of his problems. And there will be research that will hopefully help him even better. At the moment his functioning is severely hampered by very intense re-experiences. Please pray that he will be able to process his terrible experiences bit by bit, so that the re-experiences will diminish.

Esther

Thank God for Esther's steady growth. However, threats and stalking by cult people are not abating. Pray for safety and protection. And for God's guidance for the right choices at the right times. A song that means a lot to Esther and that she would like to share with you: https://youtu.be/7nxmJY-UghM

Mirthe

Thank God for the network of helpers emerging around Mirthe. Pray that Mirthe and her therapist add the right people to this, who are stable and firm enough to help her. Pray for insight from Mirthe and her therapist, that she will break free from the ways in which the cult manages to repeatedly pull her back into their grip, still abusing and torturing her regularly. Pray that it will become clear what traumas underlie this. Pray for courage to face and process these traumas.

Ella

Ella writes: ''I think I very much want prayer for connection. Connection to the parts, connection of parts to each other, connection of the body, and also connection in the sense that things I experience seem like separate islands, but also connection to DIS as a diagnosis. And a second is that I may find out why there are so many questions inside so that maybe that can become less and things may be more like they are."

C.

Pray for survivor C, she still has cult loyal person parts and parts that seek out situations of abuse because they have been trained and programmed to do so. Pray for wisdom for the therapist. Pray that the punishing of parts that want out by parts that are still cult loyal will stop. Pray that the parts that seek these situations of abuse will be stopped and that contact with these parts will become possible. Pray that the protagonist who is in constant re-experiences and also has programming to disappear will come out of this and be able to be present in the here and now to make her choices.

K.

Prayer for survivor K. who is incredibly lonely and also very self-isolating due to programming.

E.

Pray for the steps E. is taking to go public with a website on trauma and recovery and her personal story. Pray for wisdom, peace and blessing from God in this process. Pray also for E.'s sister who is still with cult, and her child. And that her husband - not known to be involved in cult - may begin to take notice of what is happening to his wife.

Certain days

Besides the usual dates of e.g. the full moon, the new moon, Fridays the 13th, the following dates can be marked as cult days in the coming months. They usually mainly concern the night in which these days begin. Information has largely come from survivors we know, concerns the Dutch situation, and may be incomplete. For one day, a brief explanation.

→ 9 to 15 April preparations Good Friday

→ 15 April Good Friday

→ 16-18 April Easter

→ 21-30 April

→ 30 April/ 1 May Walpurgisnacht;

In April/May, spring is 'celebrated' in the cult. During Walpurgis Night, the ceremony is performed as a climax. Fertile girls are chosen who are 'chosen' to bear a child at Christmas. Special offerings, as an additional gift to sanctification.

→ 1 and 2 May Beltane

→ 4/5 May

→ 26 May Ascension

→ 5/6 June Pentecost

→ 21 to 23 June

→ 1 to 7 July

→ 20 to 27 July

→ 1 August

→ 3 August

Thank you for your prayers!

Carla, Esther & Aline