Prayer letter around Halloween and Saint Martin 2025
A Gideon's army; prayer letter around satanic ritual abuse (srm), published by Friends of Esthers foundation.
The purpose of this prayer letter is to initiate a prayer movement in the Netherlands and abroad to free victims from the shackles of satanic ritual abuse.
In addition, to make people aware of the existence of satanic networks under the surface of our Western society. So that a network of passionate people gradually emerges to offer spiritual and practical support to victims (and perpetrators) who choose freedom.
This prayer letter on the topics of Halloween and St Martin's Day begins with a poem by Noa entitled "Hold me!", after which Esther talks about her memories of St Martin's Day. It then includes an encouragement from a faithful prayer we received through the mail. This is followed by a drawing of a survivor followed by the thanksgiving and prayer points. Finally, the prayer calendar for the coming period follows. You will also see the link to the 2023 prayer letter, which contains more information on these topics. We hope that the information in this prayer letter helps you to pray with growing understanding and persistence for all things necessary to stop this hideous evil of srm. So that many lives may be saved and restored to the glory of the only God who is perfect and good.
Hold me! By Noa
Please hold me tightly,
Don't let go of me.
I am balancing on the precipice
Don't drop me.
Hold me when I get home,
Hold me as I work,
Hold me when I'm awake
Hold me as I sleep.
I need to feel Your arms around me
To feel that You are near
So that I know I cannot sink into quicksand
I need Your love and warmth
But I'm not really sure how to ask for that
Whether I can ask for it
I don't want to be too much
I need the truth about who I am and who You are
To be felt in my heart
But the lies run so deep
Sometimes I can't see the forest for the trees.
And then I wonder
Do you remember who I am
Do you still see me
Are You angry or disappointed in me
Have you given up
Therefore, I ask You
Speak to my heart
Tell me the truth just until it erases the lies
Hold me tightly just until I can let in the warmth and love
I need Your nearness because I cannot do without it
Hold my heart in Your hands and protect it
For it wants nothing more than to just be with You
I am so used to fighting myself
To do everything alone and shut others out.
That I don't really know how to let these things in
But that's what I want
My heart feels broken
It is so terribly fragile at the moment
I cry out in silence to You
Help me! Hold me close to You! Don't let me go!
From Esther
'November 11 is the day, that my light, that my light, November 11 is the day, that my light may burn...'
Who doesn't know the song? The song you'd sing as a child going past the doors to get a sweet in return. Is it innocent? Can your child just participate in it? What origin does it have? In cult, we learnt something completely different on 11 November, but the triggers are so great with this St Martin's Day, that disconnection fails when I see the children walking past the doors with their lights in their hands. They are happy when they get a sweet and as soon as they have a chance, they eat it quickly.
In some places, bonfires are being held. The highest is in the news and people standing around it seem to enjoy these celebrations.
I go back in my memories as soon as I see or hear any of these things. It takes me back to the evening of 10 November where we have to walk around a bonfire like children, holding a lantern. Naked. Adult men and women stand around it, making noises as we walk around like children. Each in the same rhythm, without looking up, waiting for the high word to be called by our leader in red.
The high word gets out and we all stand still. The leader's finger 'luckily' does not point at me. The designated girl wants to run away but is stopped and she is burned alive on the bonfire, what we call sacrificial fire here. St Martin's Day has begun ...
The night is all about fertility. Demons are invited and allowed into the bodies of us girls and women and after this, men come to rape us. The intention is to induce pregnancies.
After a few hours of sleep, daytime pheasant hunting begins in the meadows where farmers keep their crops. I get to fetch the shot pheasants, but they always shoot once on purpose right next to me to scare me. After a sexual orgy, I get to go home and at school everyone asks how many sweets I picked up ...
If you want to know more about Halloween and Saint Martin, the period of this prayer letter, read our prayer letter from two years ago.
Encouragement
Occasionally, we receive encouragement through the mail from prayer letter prayers. This is always very encouraging. Below we gladly share -with permission of the sender, of course- such an e-mail, also as an example of how to deal with children and the topic of srm.
Beloved friends and allies,
Just a short email of encouragement:
That you know that you and his are being prayed for every day.
What a sadness always to read this.
Our four children are still very young, and of course we never tell them the full version as it is still too drastic for the children's souls.
But we always call you the srm kids so they can give it a name.
If we as parents forget once a day to pray for you they say right away, you did not pray for the srm kids.
How easy it is to implant in children early on that they should fight for the needs of others (and what a lot of them there are!).
Heartily wishing God's blessing and much wisdom by the Supreme Wisdom!
Drawing of a survivor (2025) 'That right through fear and through pain, I stand up for who I am. That I keep growing despite resistance. Until I succeed, to believe that I am allowed to be.'
Thanksgiving
Farmstead 'the Inner Garden
We are grateful for the Hoeve and all it gives. The peace, nature, but also the fruit on the trees. God's creation is very clear to see!
Handlers
We are incredibly grateful that some treatments are running, that there are teachable people involved and we are on the road together. Even during illness or other downtime, we often still manage to keep treatments going. For this we are very grateful!
Network friends
Being a network friend is not always easy, which is why we are all the more grateful that those who are network friends are faithful, patient and persistent! That which helps a survivor, they try to do within God's bounds.
Donations
We are grateful that donations come in every month to enable us to do our work. Without these donations, helping our target group becomes much harder.
Prayer groups
We are very grateful to know that more and more people and groups are praying for srm survivors. Prayer is a powerful weapon!
Information evenings and courses
We are grateful that the information evenings are attended and that our work, but especially this injustice, is becoming better known in the Netherlands. We have also started a mini-course. We see and speak to sincere people who are searching for what Yeshua wants them to do. We are grateful for that!
PRAY FOR ...
And all that ye shall ask faithfully in prayer ye shall receive (Matthew 21:22).
Handlers
Pray that for the work of practitioners and that donations will continue to come in to fund this and that practitioners will receive wisdom and strength for their work. We still need practitioners to be able to adequately help our current beneficiaries and thus also make room for new applications.
Network friends
Pray that the people who are now network friends will endure to be able to be friends, while the person seeking help shows more and more of themselves. Pray for more network friends throughout the country, there is a really big shortage of these and sometimes literally gets in the way of getting out of the cult. Specifically, we are looking for networkers in the broad surroundings of Amsterdam, Zwolle, Gorinchem and Utrecht.
Work by Friends of Esthers
Pray for all the developments within Friends of Esthers. We are working hard to improve diagnostics for CDIS (complex DIS) in ongoing abuse and we are working in several areas to spread our knowledge. For instance, there are regular meetings for networkers, bidders, and so on where we transfer knowledge and meet. We also hold regular counselling sessions with people who are already working with a survivor, but for whom we don't have a treatment space within Friends of Esthers. In this way, we still help them to some extent with our knowledge.
There is a lot of time and energy in this work and each step requires a lot of wisdom. We need Yeshua very much in this, if He does not build the house, in vain toil the builders (Psalm 127:1) We are very much aware of this. Pray for His guidance with every step we take in every area of our work and with every person we deal with.
Finance for Hoeve 'the Inner Garden'
We started the Hoeve last year. A place where survivors can safely work on their traumas, so they can and dare get out. Our project still needs money to renovate the large barn. Please pray for finances, builders and building materials for this so we can convert it into an office and training/meeting space to see clients, train practitioners and networkers and meet together in a safe place.
Prayer groups
Pray for more people to stand up against injustice and fight along in the spiritual world. Find people and start praying together. Ask others to join. Start ... Yeshua will bless it.
Perpetrators
Continue to pray for offenders to encounter Yeshua and see what He is doing in the lives of survivors. Pray for courage and outstretched arms in their lives where they feel the safety and freedom to repent and start their lives anew.
Survivors
Pray for survivors who cannot be mentioned by name for various reasons. Pray that they may know that they are valuable to Yeshua, pray that they will learn that there are people who can be trusted and above all that Yeshua is safe and is always with them. Pray that Yeshua will put safe people around them so that there will be opportunities for them to recover from what has been done to them.
Other survivors and helpers still waiting
We are in contact with several help seekers and due to the lack of network friends and practitioners, we cannot help everyone right now. Pray for wisdom for us for the applications that are already ongoing. For proper diagnostics and for the right doors to the right help. Churches that dare to open their doors to this group. Pray that those who have to wait for help will find courage and strength to persevere and not give up or will find another place where they can be helped. That they will experience that the great arms of Yeshua will carry them too.
People already in contact with a survivor (outside Friends of Esthers)
Pray also for people who are already in contact with a survivor. We hear many stories of people who do their best tremendously, are there very much for the person in need, but at the same time are in great need because of the lack of proper care and people around them. Pray that churches will rise up to support these people, prayerfully and practically, and that people will continue to receive strength and love to keep up this work. No one can do this work alone!
Anjer
Carnation is a brave practitioner who has been working with survivors for some time. Her job really matters and for help and advice she is always sympathetic. However, she does have poor health, which has deteriorated recently. Pray that she will keep the strength and courage to keep doing this work and feel her limits in this. Pray also for wisdom during the treatments.
Martin
Martin is a help-seeker at Friends of Esthers. His process is intense and has a lot of impact on himself and those around him. Pray that person parts learn to stay safe and that more and more parts choose the way of Yeshua. Pray also for Martin's partner, who has been overburdened for a long time and is also having a tough time due to a nearby death. Pray for a balance in rest and work moments and that she will keep up the process and that this will not adversely affect Martin.
Adam
Adam is a son of a survivor. Eager prayer that Yeshua puts the right people around him and around his family so that he dares to step out of this darkness. Much wisdom is needed and Yeshua will have to be the one to open the right doors and make his heart willing. In the coming months, there will be crucial moments that will show which path Adam takes.
Ismael
Ismael is a grandchild of a survivor and experiences abuse in his early years. Unfortunately, there is no access to him yet to help him be and stay safe until now. Pray for open doors and for parents to address opportunities for exit! There is no current update on Ismael at this time.
Myrthe
Myrthe appreciates being prayed for, giving her strength to continue and move forward in her process of becoming free. Pray for recovery, processing and protection.
Ladybird
Difficult memories come up, where it is difficult to let it be there because there is little network and help. Therefore, she does not always manage to continue in her process. Pray for more networkers so that she feels more secure to continue in her processes and can also keep up her work.
Ferdi
Has already had a long road where he has faced a lot of opposition. Pray for open doors and Yeshua's guidance to bring the right people into his path so that the path to lasting freedom can be set.
Ingrid
Ingrid is a brave relief worker who does not give up. Her suffering is great, but her will to recover and be able to help others is greater. There have been great breakthroughs in her process, but her suffering is intense. She desperately wants a living relationship with the real Comforter! Pray also for safety where she lives.
Laura
It is hard for Laura that a lot of traumatic memories are surfacing. Pray that she will keep courage to continue in the process she is in and that more parts will start following the Good Shepherd. Her desire is that she may get to know herself more and more and get more in touch with her parts. Also happy prayers for her partner that he gets strength to keep going to support Laura.
Esther
Over the past few months, I have continued to use my knowledge and experience for help seekers and for knowledge transfer moments. However, the hard struggle of the past few years is taking its toll, so I have had to take a step back in my work to find a new balance. This has greatly affected the care we provide. At the same time, I am very grateful that new ways are being found as a result. I keep experiencing Yeshua's guidance and presence, for this I am intensely grateful! Pray for wisdom and strength to continue this work and to be there in love and with an eye for the other. Not my will, but His will. Song for this period: Narrow Road - Josh Baldwin
Aline
Thank you for your prayers for wisdom in priorities at this stage of my life and work. These I have experienced. I am grateful that God has given people to take over tasks from me that were needed. Gladly I continue to ask prayer that I may hear God's voice clearly in all the voices in my life, so that I do only what He asks of me, with a completely committed heart. That is my desire.
Humbly
Humbly has been intensely involved with a survivor on a daily basis for many years. The suffering of this survivor is tough to see and experience every day, yet she perseveres! Pray that she will persevere, that she will receive wisdom and courage for steps she may take, and that she will feel carried by Yeshua! Pray also for possible open doors for the future to keep this work bearable.
Desiree
Is a brave woman who knows several survivors, cares for them and wants to be like a friend. She has also been given more tasks that allow her to develop and grow, but these tasks are tough. She often faces spiritual struggles through this work. Pray for protection and wisdom in the steps she takes and that she may know again and again what Yeshua wants her to do!
Geertje
There are positive reports surrounding Geertje. The court rulings have been made, which still have some snags, but security has definitely been increased. Geertje's mental health is also improving. They are currently looking for a new home, to achieve more peace and recovery.
Azarja
In the previous prayer letter, we asked prayer for Abednego, pseudonym for the son of one of our practitioners. A bidder pointed out to us that this name means 'servant of Nego (Babylonian god)'. When searching for a pseudonym, this name was chosen because of this man's steadfast deeds, but unfortunately the meaning was not considered. Therefore, we are happy to change it to Azarja, the original Hebrew name of this faithful and courageous man. A name that means 'Yahweh helped'. A great point of thanks is that prayers for the right helpers have been answered in special ways! There is a whole team of people faithfully involved in prayer and practical help around him. Will you continue to pray for deep recovery from pain, that God will separate truth from lies in his heart and that he can connect with people who love him in a healthy way?
Prayer calendar
Cult dates with ritual times, additional information and prayer points
It is very intensive for survivors to surface specific information about each cult night, because each cult meeting is associated with many horrible memories, which then come to the surface. Therefore, it has not been possible to get sufficient clarity on the specific times of all days. The 1am-3pm times are not always fully covering: the cult often goes on longer and sometimes starts earlier. For certain cult groups, Friday night is fixed cult night. Friday is therefore a day that is especially tough for many survivors.
Days like new moon and full moon are days when the cult comes together extra and the intensity is heavier. Pray that these nights will be disrupted and the spiritual power they experience will be powerless.
(Note: if it says September 7, then it refers to the night of September 6-7).
7 September 1.00-4.00 this night is also full moon so extra heavy
20 September 11am-6pm (19 September from 11pm until 20 September 6am)
Night with preparation for a special sacrifice and the sacrifice around 5 o'clock (climax).
September 21 new moon 1.00-3.00 pm
23 September 1am-4pm
7 October full moon 1am-3pm
13 October 1.00-3.00 reverse of 31 October
21 October new moon 1am-3pm
25 October (Start is on 24 October at 22:31 with climax on 25 October between 1:00-4:00)
This night is the start of the Halloween heyday. There is a cult ceremony, a kind of start-up initiation week, where the most important thing is that everyone gets focused on the purpose of Halloween. Honouring the dead, making the right sacrifices (read innocent babies), in order to curry favour with Satan. The starting ceremony, as on this night, takes place regionally in many groups across the country. Also during this night, a sacrifice of a child under 2 years of age takes place. After the ceremony, there is an orgy meeting where the adults abuse the children. Pray for the disruption of ceremonies across the country. Pray for hope for the victims. This week is endlessly long and cannot be borne without drugs and pain. Pray that Yeshua is near and makes outlets. After all, nothing is impossible for Him!
25 on 26 October normal ceremony times from 1:00-4:00pm
This night is a preparation for Halloween night. Children are told that these days it comes down to how 'good' they are and that they may be sacrificed. The brainwashing of this begins - and as a child this week, you increasingly believe that - when you are chosen to be sacrificed, you are special and matter. You are used to interact with demons and the group members. You will be raped several times and either honoured or left as rubbish for a few hours, giving you a good sense of which group you belong to: the good guys or the bad guys. This evening ends with orgies, where sex with babies and toddlers is not shunned. Pray for the children, that they feel the security of a God who cares for them, is always there for them, in the midst of this darkness. This really is possible and I have experienced it myself. Let us pray that every child may have this assurance, deep in his/her heart, that cannot be taken away!
26 on 27 October normal ceremony times from 1:00-4:00 pm
This night is a preparation mainly focused on interaction with demons. Demons are invited to have sex with children who are prepared in a circle. The adults who are then allowed to rape believe that power is derived from sex with children who have been 'impregnated' by demons. The children are also screened and watched, and sometimes they also already choose which child will be sacrificed later this week. Pray for a countermovement in the spiritual world. Pray that the demons will not be able to invade the children of Yeshua (every child is His) and that God's strength and power will be known, right there in the midst of that circle.
27 on 28 October normal ceremony from 1:00-4:00 am, after which at 04:28 services continue continuously at different locations).
This is the last 'normal' night during Halloween week. Preparations continue, with children getting ready for the big climax. They start believing more and more that they are important to Satan and try with all their might to gain more moments in esteem. This makes them feel safer and more worthy. However, the opposite is true. The one who fights hard to be good enough, but is not in the eyes of the cult, will be sacrificed. Pray for these children that they will know the real truth deep within. The truth that there is a God who loves them, cares for them and - when they do not survive - waits for them. A God who can give outcome, a way out, even if it is invisible. Pray that they will feel, and above all know, that there are people who know this injustice and plead for their freedom with God the Father.
October 28-29 (The previous night at 4:28am, continuous meetings have already started and have not stopped during the day either. From this night, the meeting from 1:00 to 4:00 am is mandatory every night).
This day is a day to prepare for the Halloween night from 31 October to 1 November. Children will be recruited, deliveries induced and people chosen to be sacrificed on the holy night. Pray for the survivors that they may feel hope. Light in this darkness. Adults and children who are in the cult from birth are required to attend these kinds of holy days. I know from myself how, around Halloween, I looked for a way out to avoid going. Being very sick, people suddenly coming to visit, very very sometimes there were 'coincidences' that even cult could not force me to go. Pray for possibilities and opportunities not to have to experience these nights. Pray that their preparations will be brought into the light and exposed so that their preparations become chance-free.
29 on 30 October 1am-4pm
30 on 31 October 1 a.m.-4 p.m.
This day and night is also dominated by preparations for Halloween night. Once again, recruit children and induce childbirth. Pray for the mothers for whom it is not possible to truly be mothers. Who it is not given to hold, protect and cherish their baby in their arms. They must allow and watch against all their natural feelings as their baby is bestially sacrificed, either by another or by themselves. Pray for their recovery and that they may trust that Yeshua will take care of their baby and they will have a much better life with Him.
Demons are summoned, asked to be favourable to them. Sacrifices are made to gain/earn more place in the spiritual world. All this is done through the sacrifice of a newborn. Pray that this night the demons have no room to move. That any possibility of their manifestation is prevented and that Yeshua intervenes with His mighty Light and power.
31 October to 1 November this is Halloween night, the high tide night and will last until 10am (of 1 November)
During this night, various rituals are done, which include the rape of children by demons, later by those present. The sacrifice of babies and children born and recruited this week, after which their bodies are burnt and violent manifestations take place in the minds and bodies of attendees which gives them a 'kick' to want more of this dark world. Pray for disruption of ceremonies across the country (and beyond). Pray for exposure in the world of these dark practices: the darkness needs to be in the light. Pray for the victims, for supernatural protection, that Yeshua will be present, take away their fears and give them peace. Pray for the perpetrator-perpetrators. That they may realise what they are doing, but also see ways to ask for help. Pray that the church of Christ will be willing and ready to receive these people too, help them, show them the way of Yeshua and show endless mercy and patience so that they will and can truly follow the way of Yeshua.
1- 4 November the Halloween climax is over, but the misery of the victims is not yet. Those who 'made it' still have tough days ahead in which distinctions will begin to be made between good, not so good and bad children and adults. Each will have to earn grace again in the coming months, using Christmas as a benchmark once again. The cult is a place of achievement and obedience, held together by bonds of fear. Only the love of Yeshua and His light can change this.
November 5 full moon (super moon) 1.00-3.00pm
11 November 0.00-4.00 Sint Maarten
This is a specific 'cult festival' in which a fire sacrifice is made. A person, usually a young woman is burned alive on a fire after worshipping demons.
20 November new moon 1.00-3.00 pm
Will you continue to pray with us?
The next prayer letter will come out at the end of November!
On behalf of team Friends of Esthers,
Esther, Aline and Janita
This prayer letter may be distributed widely, especially in churches. 'My people perish for lack of knowledge,' says the Bible (Hosea 4:6). So let us not look away anymore. Let us fix our eyes on Yeshua and injustice, and let us embrace those caught in it and take them before the throne of God!
For more information on satanic ritual abuse, see e.g.
https://www.vpro.nl/argos/media/afleveringen/2020/uitzending-27-juni-ritueel-misbruik.html
https://www.vpro.nl/argos/media/afleveringen/2018/Het-verhaal-van-Lisa.html
NB: the above highly informative documentaries have unfortunately been taken offline by Argos, but can still be found elsewhere on the internet for those who do a quick search.
For whom and by whom?
This prayer letter is for any Christian who wants to join in prayer based on good information. It is an initiative of Esther, Aline and Janita. Esther was born into a church family that worshipped Satan and has struggled to break free from the grip of this cult. Aline professionally helps survivors of satanic ritual abuse step out of this cult and come to recovery physically, emotionally and spiritually. Janita is active in prayer work around srm and is a practitioner.
If you know people who might be interested in praying with you, please feel free to forward this letter and the prayer points. If you no longer wish to receive this prayer letter and the prayer points, an e-mail back will suffice
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