Call to prayer and fasting, Easter 2023

Extra edition of 'A Gideon's army: prayer letter around satanic ritual abuse'

Easter is: Yeshua lives!

Yeshua was mocked, beaten, tortured and hung on a cross. He bore the heavy burden of sin of the whole world, was forsaken by His friends and family and even by His heavenly Father. After three days, He rose from the dead. Now He is the victorious conquering King! He sits at the right hand of the Father where He prays and pleads for us. God's loving Father heart for all people was reflected in Yeshua's life when He lived on earth.

Yeshua says in John 14: 9: "Whoever has seen Me has seen the Father." During His life here on earth, He showed that He was moved by all people, men, women and children alike. We see that He was respectful towards women: there are several encounters with women described in the Bible. When parents brought their children to Yeshua so that He could bless them, Yeshua said, "Let the children come to Me and do not hinder them, for for such is the kingdom of God" (Luke 18: 16).

What grief the Lord will take from all the atrocities people are capable of under the influence of Satan. We live in a broken world where people face unbearable suffering. Just think of the victims and survivors of satanic ritual abuse (SRA). What they have to endure is beyond comprehension.

Soon we will remember the suffering and death and resurrection of Yeshua during Good Friday and Easter. For victims and survivors of SRA, another difficult period dawns. At Easter, during cult meetings, curses are specifically pronounced on all that are alive in the eyes of Yeshua. Death is sanctioned and attempts are made to destroy life. Children are raped on an upside-down cross, a newborn baby is sacrificed.

Our God loves righteousness and hates wickedness (Psalm 45: 8). His kingdom is a kingdom of righteousness. For He is coming to judge the earth, He will judge the world in righteousness and the nations with His truth (Psalm 96: 13). And until then, may we pray and bring all those suffering through SRA before the Throne of the Lord of lords our great awesome God.

In this prayer letter, Maddy tells how she experiences Good Friday and Easter. This is followed by thanksgiving points and answers to prayer. Specific prayer points for different subjects and people are then mentioned. It also tells about helping survivors during some cult nights and covers the dates of cult nights with information and prayer points for the respective cult nights.

We make an appeal to pray for the various issues and people mentioned in this prayer letter. We also ask for prayers (and fasting) during the mentioned cult days/nights. Someone once said, "Our prayers can go where we cannot. When we pray, there are no borders, no prison walls and no closed doors." Let us persevere in prayer.

Thanksgiving and answers to prayer


The Friends of Esthers team is grateful for the involvement of more and more people who support our work. We see passion and faith and this builds us up and helps us continue with this work. We have been able to give several speaking engagements recently so that knowledge around srm is broadened and prayer is more and more supported. We also held a training day with involved aid workers to broaden knowledge and make relationships stronger. We cannot do it alone, but together we are a Gideon's Army!


Friends of Esthers is also grateful for donations that have come in over the past year. Because of this, we have already been able to do a lot. Think of multiple diagnostic pathways and building a healthy network around a survivor. It is necessary that finances continue to come in so that the help to the survivors we are currently helping can continue.

Courageous helpers

We had the opportunity to speak to courageous ones in need of help. We have started working with several of them so that they are able to turn their backs on the cult for good. This is a long and intensive process that requires a lot of wisdom and prayer. We are grateful for every courageous step they take and for the strength and opportunities we keep experiencing. God opens doors and gives us what we need.



The prayer of a righteous person accomplishes much, in that there is strength

granted to it (James 5:16).


Because Friends of Esthers has received many applications from help-seekers, but is still growing and needs to train new people to help, we have a sign-up stop. Pray that survivors who cannot approach us currently will remain hopeful of salvation and that they will find the right people on their path of life who can help them.

Pray also for many applications from practitioners and aid-givers so that we can equip and guide people to help survivors. Any survivor who chooses to step out needs at least two therapists for several years. We are not just looking for experienced trauma therapists or highly educated people, we are looking for people who are eager to learn and whose hearts are 'healthy', with no possibilities of blackmail, who want to learn to become trauma therapists or counsellors. Pray that people will be courageous to use their skills and passion to pull people out of darkness. The more practitioners and helpers there are, the less burdensome it becomes for the practitioners now involved. Any trustworthy person with a heart focused on Yeshua can help.

Good Friday and Easter (by Maddy)

Good Friday? Easter?

Everyone sees it as holidays.

For me they are horrible days.

No party, continuous images intrude on you.

Everywhere you go and look,
you are confronted with your past.

You don't want to think about it but you have to,

Because running away doesn't work.

I look at my past,

as many as a thousand pieces lie on the floor.

I try to make the puzzle,
never before have I experienced these days so consciously.

Aware of my own DIS
And aware of my past.

I feel a lot more emotions, I feel a lot of pain,

sadness, anger, frustrations.

I'm not so sure

what I should and should not do

today and these days, my head is spinning.

I have to act like an adult,

I must, I must, I must, I must ...

I have to stay here,

I cannot and must not drown

in my past.

I don't have to think ...

I shouldn't feel ...

I need to give myself structure ...

I have to do it myself today ...

I'm not allowed to ask for help ...

Stupid days ...

I don't want to eat ...

not thinking about the food ...

But I have to ...

Not thinking ... not feeling ...

Making lists of what to do ...

But my body doesn't want to,

my head won't.

It feels like a heavy block of concrete

on me ...

This is what Good Friday feels like


Pray that the perpetrators will encounter the Lord Yeshua and see what He does in the lives of survivors. Pray for courage and outstretched arms in their lives where they feel the safety and freedom to repent and start their lives anew.

When creating new networks around survivors, we take a careful approach. We want people to participate with the right motives and put the interests of the survivor first. Pray for more networkers. Pray for networkers' process of wanting to learn, grow and stand beside someone. Pray for courage and confidence.

Pray for more host families, more safe places for survivors. Pray that people who are willing will and dare go the extra mile. Pray for courage and especially lots of love and for open doors and the right match with the right survivor.

The Hendriks committee investigation report was presented on the darkest day of the year, just before Christmas. For the survivors who collaborated on the interviews, an extra hard time, because in our view, it did not turn out to be such a good study. The opinions of the 20 mental health practitioners can be read here.

Pray for justice and a fair investigation that will bring the truth to light.

We hear that more and more places in the Netherlands and abroad are praying for survivors of ritual abuse. Pray for even more intercessors, especially during cult nights. Pray that the spiritual army will actively and passionately seek justice and righteousness in the spiritual world. Pray that churches and Christian congregations will take more and more responsibility to want to fight this battle together as a big family. So that we as Christians stand together around survivors and are also ready to embrace perpetrator-perpetrators in love, so that darkness will lose its power.

Pray for all aid workers involved (both professional and volunteers) who work on behalf of SRA survivors. Pray that the Lord will protect them, give them wisdom and insight to do this important work. Pray that they will be strong and courageous, as the Lord says in Joshua 1: 9 "Be strong and courageous, do not be afraid and do not be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go."



Adam is the adult son of a survivor. He is caught in the clutches of the cult and has not yet found his way to freedom. Pray that the path his mother took may give him hope and courage to step out too. Pray for his wife and children, for safety and prospects.


With Christiaan, we have been on the road for a while. Pray for breakthroughs and wisdom in the help we can and want to offer him. Pray for courage to accept our help.

Geertje and her family

At the time of publishing this prayer letter, there is still no final verdict in the legal dispute surrounding Geertje. However, her parents are experiencing increasing recovery in Geertje and trust Yeshua to bring a solution. Pray for a breakthrough, that Geertje may continue to live with her mother and make a full recovery


Esther writes: "I have been fully integrated since October 2022. This also brings a lot of difficulties with it, think of all the feelings and thoughts I can have all at once now. This makes it quite tough. Still I am also grateful for the past period. I have been able to witness several times and people draw hope out of my process. I am very grateful for that. Pray for safety and that the cult will leave me alone. That they will realise that I will not stop moving forward and that it is pointless to hang around me!"


Els is a courageous practitioner who works with survivors of srm. She has long been under fire in her work. Pray That she continues to have the courage and perseverance to stand up for these survivors. Pray also for doors that remain open, so that she can continue to help them and that she is perceived as a full, skilled practitionersee.


Jan is an older toddler who shows characteristics of severe abuse in his play behaviour and in other ways, with possible signs of organised abuse. A lot is going on around Jan. Pray that he will live in a place where he is safe and gets the treatment he needs. Pray that he will feel safe and develop soas a child is supposed to develop.


Mirthe asks prayer to start a good network. She also asks prayer for her health because Mirthe has many physical complaints. She also suffers from re-experiences. Pray also that she can withstand triggers and that she can (with help) avoid going with the wrong people.


Tamara is a 10-year-old girl who knows one of the handlers. It is currently not possible to get her to help, but the signs are serious. Her parents keep the doors closed. Pray for open doors so that there will be a path of recovery can be entered. 


Ella is in a deep process of getting more in touch with her parts and her feelings, and her body. Pray for her that she may gain the strength to continue to cope with this. Pray also that she may experience that God being there and carrying her. Right now, connection remains a struggle point for Ella but also to get inside truth of lies. Ella herself also feels she is not trying hard enough in her process to get help worth being. Pray for Ella that this will change in her system, that she may experience that she is allowed to be there and that she can don't have to prove anything but may be helped.


C. has made very brave choices to make her life safer, both outside and inside. In this, she is together with her counsellors on her way, encountering a lot of inner resistance due to programming. Would like prayer for breakthrough in this. And also prayer that she can hold on to what she chooses, that it is not robbed and that inner connection also does not fall apart every time. Pray also that she may be increasingly firm in Yeshua and in how He sees her. So that she can no longer just be brought down by darkness. Pray that she may become more and more powerful.


There is a big prayer and help request from and for K. namely that there will be transport to take her once every two weeks (sometimes once a month) from her home town to Elburg and back. Both she and her social workers have already tried every possible channel, have asked for help in lots of churches, but so far there has been no one who wants to do it. This is very painful for her, precisely because she struggles so much with God. His people havenice words in a church service but when it comes to someone coming out of the darkness of SRA to help, no one seems to be giving home. Please pray with me that there will be a breakthrough in this and should you wish to help, please contact A fee is given per ride.


Joos states: "Like to pray for my shelter sister, she is doing very badly. She has ovarian cancer and metastases, stage four. Pray that the final chemotherapy may take effect, or else she will soon go to her Heavenly Father may go. And pray for me too. Besides this situation, there is much mourning over my children who have lost their livesbrought his. Pray that I find a way to live on with this."


Jennifer says: "Despite the fact that it has been clear for 13 years that our brains need to process much more stimuliknow than in most people and also with hearing are hypersensitive (hyperacusis) and we due to overstimulation and CPTSS/DIS have so much jaw tension that without braces and night splints we literally bite our molars into pieces and we have autism, the health insurer continues to be difficult. As a result, an amount of more than €5000 not reimbursed, which we need for aids and medical expenses." Pray for recognition of the slidegnoses and for reimbursement of aids and taxi transport. Jennifer feels she is always a burden everywhere is and that she actually would have been better off not being there. Pray that she may experience that she is valuable and that Yeshua of her loves. Pray that Yeshua will restore and heal these feelings. And as Jennifer herself asks, "That if it God's plan is, we are and may become less eccentric when it comes to infrequent diagnoses? By For example, that God heals those problems?"


She asks for prayer because she suffers a lot from horrible memories with intense feelings. In daily life, these feelings are triggered by unpleasant events, for example at work, making heden and past sometimes get mixed up. She often feels very alone in this. She asks prayer for help with the coping processes, to have friends who understand what is going on and to be able to experience God's nearnessrun in this.


Helen is a brave survivor who has sought help from Friends of Esthers and has been going through the process of getting out one time ago. She wants to give as a point of thanks that she recently made a very big, beautiful step aftermely that she has been baptised. Pray for courage in her process, pray for strength and love for those around her and pray for wisdom on how we can help her in this.


Is a practitioner who has been working with survivors of ritual abuse for a long time. She regularly gets mental attacked which also manifests itself in physical complaints. Again and again, we see that prayer really helps. It would be nice be when an army can pray for her too! Pray she perseveres, pray for wisdom and insight.

Helping survivors during cult nights


During the cult nights of Christmas and New Year, we were available digitally for survivors. During cult nights, it is harder for them to realise that it is better not to go back to the cult and to be safe to stay. Many survivors live alone and during the holidays, practitioners are often off. They are also dagene where many people spend time with family, but for survivors, their own families are not always safe. They do not want to "disrupt" other people's fine family moments and the result is that they retreat and being alone. Then night falls, the nights when they are expected to come by the cult. All memories come back that touch them in the middle of their hearts. Their baby they lost during that nightand, the desolation they have felt and now feel extra again. Then it is very difficult to be safe at home stay and not go back.


We would like to be there for those who have to face this gigantic struggle every time not to go back fall. We want to listen to them and encourage them to stay home and affirm that staying home is the right thing to do. If we can't manage to stay at home, which we obviously hope not, we want to be there for them too so that they do not have to bear the panic and fear alone. These moments should not be done by anyone alone.


During the cult nights of Easter, Walpurgis Night and 4 and 5 May, we will again be available digitally for survivors. Pray that survivors will dare to ask for our help during these nights. Pray for wisdom during the conversations and that God's guidance will be there!


(Should you, as a survivor, wish to avail yourself of this opportunity, we ask that you use your behansign up with us. We will not ask for any data traceable to your identity).

Prayer calendar

Cult dates with times of rituals and additional information and prayer points Days like new moon and full moon are days when the cult comes together extra and the intensity is heavier is. Pray that these nights will be disrupted and the spiritual power they experience will be powerless. (Note: if it says 20 March, it refers to the night of 19-20 March).

20 March

21 March new moon

March 24

30 March - 7 April preparations Good Friday

From the night of 29-30 March until the night of 5-6 April, there will be cult gatherings every night from 01:00 - 03:00. This week is all about preparations for Good Friday and Easter. Victims will be "made ready" to be sacrificed, to attend orgies, and there will be deliveries where babies are abused and sacrificed. Rituals are performed and sacrifices of animals as well as humans and there are sex orgies involving demons. There is being worked towards the climax on 7 April. Pray for hope during these nights. That it is not hopeless, but that the victims will know that there are peoplesen who are on the breach for them these nights. Pray for the (new) mothers who will (again) have their baby lose. Pray for comfort and that Yeshua may show them where their baby is going. Safe in Yeshua's poor. During this week, 6 April is full moon so this night is extra heavy.

6 on 7 April Good Friday

Cult meetings from 0:00 - 6:00. This night is dominated by the resurrection of satan. He is portrayed as the conqueror of evil (for Satan is seen as the good in the cult). Someone is sacrificed on the cross for his glory, however, this cross is reversed. Pray for the victim on the cross, that like Stephen, he may behold the glory of God and that this may be a testimony in the group. Pray that Satan and his henchmen cannot come, that there will be spiritual domes around the victims and that they will be untouchable. After all, for our God, all things are possible.

8 to 9 April Easter Sunday

Cult meetings from 0:00 - 6:00. Today, the festival of Easter takes place in the cult. In the cult, it is not called Easter, it is the day of resurrection. Tideon Easter, curses are specifically pronounced on everything that is alive in the eyes of Yeshua. The dead is endorsed and attempts are made to destroy life. Children are raped on an omgeturned cross, the curse on its head. A newborn baby is sacrificed and more.

9 to 10 April Easter Monday

Cult meetings from 1:00 - 4:00. The day of the great curse. It is a direct attack on the Christian life. Darkness is coming as the true together. Demons are summoned in large groups and sent out to the great adversary, God. After this ultimate session, a big orgy takes place in which babies are also used and subjected to the consequences of these rapes die.

20 April new moon

21 - 30 April preparation week Walpurgis

Cult meetings mainly from 1:00 - 3:00.

This whole week is the cult festival, a preparation week for Walpurgis. It has become spring, the cult's fertility season. The beginning of spring, but above all the beginning of purification. During this week, children (between the ages of nine and 16) will be made pregnant so that they can give birth to a child during Christmas. Some girls will be "saved" for Walpurgis Night. They will not be used for sexual intercourse the week before and will only be made pregnant during Walpurgis during a special ceremony. Their cycle is geared to these days, using fertility drugs.

30 April - 1 May Walpurgis

Cult gatherings from 0:00 - 4:00 a.m. Walpurgis night and on 1 May during the day from 10:00 - 10:00 p.m. gatherings with closing hunting parties.The night of 30 April to 1 May (Walpurgis night) and during the day on 1 May are the climax. There are then sacrifices with babies, sex with people who have been killed beforehand and orgies with mainly children under eight years old. It is heralded with a 25-year-old woman being burnt alive on a blazing fire. The next day, there are gatherings and when the sun sets, hunting parties for children will take place in forests. These hunting parties officially end this period, with the "best" children remaining. Not all children survive the hunting parties.

Dhe spiritual demonic activities are intense these days. Cult members strive to go as far as possible into ecstasy touch, so that a deep, intense connection is felt with their king, Satan. They worship him as we worship Yeshua. They see him as THE light, THE life and THE answer. The spiritual interaction with demons and during the climax between 03:00 - 04:00 on this night with Satan himself (if they got it right enoughdaan have) is the real climax. It is lived intensely, there is crying and they feel like god.

The darkness has all freedom, there is no blockage, no light. Precisely this freedom of darkness is what so machtig feels and making it impossible to imagine as a victim that you can get out of this. The power of the darkness is impossible to match ... at least it feels that way at the time.

Specific prayer points are

That the victims feel there is a God who is bigger and stronger. That deep down inside they have the lifeline with Feeling Yeshua and keeping hope that there is outcome.

That the perpetrators start to doubt, doubt is sin in the cult. Doubt can kill them, but is the only way to possibly to be able to get out.

That Yeshua with his mighty army of angels will disrupt the demonic spiritual rapture. That his struggle can be present in that space of the cult during this night and that everyone there will witness the power of our King Yeshua.

That the meetings are disrupted and that in doing so, the victims will not be harmed. That no new spiritual bonds and demons can enter the victims, that no new hooks will be struck so that freedom will be closer than ever.

That the meetings cannot go ahead. 

Disembarkers have a very difficult time this night, they can be attacked and mentally "taken away" Be or be raped. Pray for them to be under Yeshua's protection and the attacks cannot make them reach.

1 and 2 May Cult Festivals

4 May Remembrance Day

Cult meetings from 0:00 - 3:00.

Memorial Day, demons impersonate important deceased cult figures and there is a sex orgy with them. 

5 May Liberation Day and full moon

Cult meetings from 0:00 - 10:00.

18 May Ascension

19 May New Moon

28-29 May Pentecost

Cult meetings from 0:00 - 3:00.

It is a night of mostly demonic activities celebrated in a physical gathering. The summoning demons and Satan is central, with the aim of increasing their power and territory. This includes an offering with a newborn born in the cult. This happens in the local cult groups scattered around the country. Afterwards, as almost always, there is a sex orgy.

4 June Full moon

18 June New Moon

21-23 June Summer festivals

Will you continue to pray with us?

Carla, Esther and Aline


This prayer letter may be distributed widely, especially in churches. 'My people perish for lack of knowledge,' says the Bible (Hosea 4:6). Let us not look away then. Let us fix our eyes on Jeshua and injustice, those who are trapped in it, embrace it and take it before the throne of God!

For more information on satanic ritual abuse, see e.g.

Documentary 'glass shards and dark rituals', Argos VPRO, 27 June 2020

Documentary 'Lisa's story', Argos VPRO, 8 Dec 2018

Documentary, sequel to Lisa's story, Argos VPRO, Feb 2019

For whom and by whom?

This prayer letter is intended for any Christian who wants to join in prayer based on good information. It is an initiative of Carla Hamoen, Esther and Aline Terpstra. Carla and Aline both professionally help survivors of satanic ritual abuse step out of this cult and physically, emotionally and come to recovery spiritually. Born into a church family that worshipped Satan, Esther struggled to break free from the grip of this cult.

If you know people who might be interested in praying with you, please feel free to forward this letter and the prayer points. If you have this prayer letter and the prayer points no longer want to receive them, an email back will suffice.


The world of survivors was totally unknown to me. I have great respect for their courage and perseverance when I hear about their bizarre experiences. How vulnerable and special that they want to share this with me personally! I really appreciate that we can open our home for encounters.

Being there unconditionally is the key

I have been touched in my heart by the injustice done to so many; I want to stand for the truth and for God's justice to prevail.

Survivors of SRM need what every human being needs: sincere love, a heart that listens without judgement and lasting connection. Even the deepest parts, those who had to murder and rape, then dare to speak. How many victims will break free from their lifelong slavery if they receive 10 such friends?

It is a privilege to pray for survivors, regularly and at key moments. And also for their families, if they are still in the cult. That is my contribution to their liberation and I experience that in this way I can help God's light to shine on their lives. As a Christian, I thus take my place in God's Kingdom and in the heavenly realms.

What a new, dark world opened up for me in 2020. Too bizarre to be true, until I started to listen and read critically and openly. I now find it a privilege to support therapists and survivors, so that the Light of Jesus overcomes the deep darkness.

I give my hands to help and my heart to love.

It is a privilege to experience a survivor. But it is an even greater privilege to be able to do your modest part to support the survivor to really live.

No one can do it all alone.... That is why I want to mean something for others. My name Tikva means HOPE ... and there is hope for everyone!